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Today is the day and I'm scared

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    Crazdwriterposted 7 years ago

    I was thinking last night that it's nothing but now...I am awake and scared half to death. My stomach is in knots and is starting to hurt because of nerves.

    i have to really start chugging water around 1:15pm and not go to the bathroom...my appointment is at 2:45 and I have to be there at 2:30.

    THANKFULLY my husband is going to be going wtih me and that eases some of the nerves but still scared shitless and really really nervous. Don't even know if I'll even be able to eat because of my nerves. sad hmm

    1. Greek One profile image75
      Greek Oneposted 7 years agoin reply to this

      sorry.. what are you scared of?

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        Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

        I have to go in to get an ultrasound done because the doctor felt that my left side of my pelvis is fuller than the right. and then also he ahd called and told me that my white blood cell count is high....so yea don't know what in the world is going on with me....

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          Greek Oneposted 7 years agoin reply to this

          don't assume the worst..

          often it is the anxiety of worry that gets us more ill than the results of the tests themselves

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            Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

            that is too true...but of course it's hard not to worry....

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              Greek Oneposted 7 years agoin reply to this

              that's why the human mind is a #$@%@^^@$^@

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                Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

                LMAO that is too true Greek too true

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          Justine76posted 7 years agoin reply to this

          its common for white blood cell count to be high if your fighting an infection/virus. The ultra sound will be over pretty quick, and hubby will be wth you. Those are all good things. After you get to go to the bathroom, I bet youll eb mighty hungry!!!

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            Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

            Oh yea I'm going to make sure I have a snack in my car waiting for me lol

            and he asked me if I was dealing with the side affects of having the high count so he thinks that it is just a mistake and that it was contaimnated.

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          Stevennix2001posted 7 years agoin reply to this

          omg, that's terrible.  i'm  sorry to hear that's happened to you. i hope you'll be okay cw. (hugs you)

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            Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

            Thanks Steven...

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              Stevennix2001posted 7 years agoin reply to this

              your welcome.  what are friends for?  i'm sure you'll be okay. just try to think positive.

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                Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

                Trying hard to think positive...

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                  Stevennix2001posted 7 years agoin reply to this

                  you said  the doctors are just going to test to see what's wrong with you right?  your not going in for an operation right now are you?

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          Deborah Sextonposted 7 years agoin reply to this

          Ovarian cyst maybe?

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            Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

            I'm HOPING not but maybe...

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              JeanMeriamposted 7 years agoin reply to this

              I used to get them when I was young. Birth control pills made it go away. It wasn't that bad at all.

              I'm hoping for you that it is something simple. The results come back from ultrasounds fairly quickly so you at least won't have too long to worry.

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                Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

                oo sorry you had to deal with that when you were younger

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      cosetteposted 7 years agoin reply to this



      you're so lucky to have such a loving, caring husband. when i had that done (and other even painful procedures), i had to go it alone. just take deep cleansing breaths and hold your husband's hand and try to push negative thoughts from your mind and you will be all right. good luck smile

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        Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

        Oh Cosette I am so sorry that you had to do procedures on ur own. *hugs* you are definitely a strong woman.

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      seanorjohnposted 7 years agoin reply to this

      I will pray that everything turns out well and that you sleep well tonight.

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        Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

        Thanks seanorjohn Appreciate that

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    Brenda Durhamposted 7 years ago

    Aww I'm sorry;  I know it's nerve-wracking;  but try to think positive; Glad hubby will be with you!
    I'm still praying for a good report from the dr. for ya.

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      Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

      Thanks Brenda...totally appreciate it...

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    lynnechandlerposted 7 years ago

    CW keep your chin up and all that jazz. I hope things go well but keep in mind you may not get an answer today so don't get too worked up. It's just a test to see if they can determine what is going on and may have to be sent back to the doctor who will have to look at it and see if he can determine what is going on. I wish you a speedy discovery though.

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      Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

      Thanks lynne I hope that I get the results back fast too...I hate waiting.

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    frogdroppingposted 7 years ago

    Craz - hoping all goes well. I know it's so easy to panic. You're in good hands and all being well, you'll just have an infection or similar. Good luck - and keep us informed. You'll be fine, no matter what!

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      Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

      thanks frog...I'll keep you posted definitely...I'll tell you guys how it felt not being able to pee for an hour too lol

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        frogdroppingposted 7 years agoin reply to this

        Ahhh craz surely that can't be worse than drinking a gallon of water when heavily pregnant, then having the doc pressing down on your stomach - whilst trying not to pee the bed, during a scan.

        I love to say that I never failed to make it through the ultrasounds before I pee'd ... wink

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          Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

          Yea Izzy was telling me about that and I already have an idea. I'm gonna wear a pad when that happens to me lol

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      Cagsilposted 7 years agoin reply to this

      I'll agree with the little frog. smile wink

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        Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

        lol thanks Cags

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    torimariposted 7 years ago

    Best of luck. Stay strong!

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      Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

      Thanks Torimari

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    Rafiniposted 7 years ago

    ((((good luck))))

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      Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

      Thanks Rafini..need all the luck I can to get me through this without freaking myself out too much smile

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        Rafiniposted 7 years agoin reply to this

        smile

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          Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

          by the way love your pic...so beautiful

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    readytoescapeposted 7 years ago

    Many of us will be thinking of you today. I’m sure I can speak for all, in that we hope and pray all is well and that fear is the only real issue, and it is for naught.

    Sometimes Scotch works for that!

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    Crazdwriterposted 7 years ago

    Thanks ready...I appreciate that. and I too hope that the fear was for nothing....

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    alexandriaruthkposted 7 years ago

    I am prayimg for you, and HUGS!!

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      Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

      thanks I needed that smile *hugs back*

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    prettydarkhorseposted 7 years ago

    hi crazd, i hope everything goes fine with you, HUGS very tight, Maita

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      Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

      Hey Maita thanks for that. been a while chica. smile

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    wordscribe41posted 7 years ago

    I'm thinking about you, too.  I'll bet it's just some sort of infection.  Just to calm you down, I just went through He** with problematic mammograms.  I was convinced I had cancer...  After a ridiculous amount of ultrasounds, more mammography and a biopsy all is well.  In medicine, they need to cast a wide net to catch anything, which of course sends off our alarm bells.  Just remember, many people have similar stories and all turned out well.  Not to mention, you're young.  Let us know what happened (if you're so inclined) when you get home.  Hugs to you!!!

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      Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

      Dang wordscribe. ur poor boobies! *hugs*

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        wordscribe41posted 7 years agoin reply to this

        I did get Tech (Nurse) Ratched for my final one.  Good grief, breasts aren't supposed to look like pancakes.  Ouch!

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          Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

          Ouch is right! I dread the day when I have to get mamograms...no smoochy my boobies! lol

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    Stevennix2001posted 7 years ago

    the reason  why i ask is because it may not be as bad as you think, if they haven't tested you completely yet to weigh the options.  not trying to make light of your situation as i know it's serious. however, lets not assume the worse before the doctor says anything.

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      Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

      yep just tests but even then it's hard to think positive and not worry...stupid doctors..why can't they find a way to NOT worry you when you have to get tests done? tongue on docs lol

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      wordscribe41posted 7 years agoin reply to this

      Yes, my mom calls that "borrowing trouble" and I've finally gotten better at avoiding it.

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    Crazdwriterposted 7 years ago

    I know why this scares me so much..it's the simply fact that I am adopted and I don't know my egg donor or sperm donor nor do I ever want to...but I also don't know medical information about the two...so that is one big factor as to why I'm freaked out today over a simple test..

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    kirstenblogposted 7 years ago

    *hugs**hugs**hugs**hugs* ~Crazd~ *hugs**hugs**hugs**hugs*



    Lots of good wishes, love and cyber hugs to you hun! I hope everything works out ok hmm

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    Crazdwriterposted 7 years ago

    Thank you so much Kristen I appreciate all the hugs smile and the kind words.

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      Faybe Bayposted 7 years agoin reply to this

      Here are some more ((HUGS)) Lots of them.

      http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aur-tmqv-sw

      Breathe! Breathe (listen to music, watch video) Breathe Breathe.

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        Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

        lol I'm breathing I swear Faybe..thanks smile

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    wordscribe41posted 7 years ago

    I can understand not having a familial medical history makes this a little more scary.  I think that's natural.  The good news about today is you will get the ultrsound results immediately instead of having to go back home and stew...  That's nice, b/c there's nothing worse than waiting for test results.

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      Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

      I will? someone said that I won't... hmm

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        wordscribe41posted 7 years agoin reply to this

        With an ultrasound, you do.  I've had a lot of them, never had to wait for the results.  They have a radiologist look at it and you'll get the results.  It's not like an MRI where you do have to wait.

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          Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

          oooo good then I won't have to freak out for longer until they give the results to my doc and all that

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            wordscribe41posted 7 years agoin reply to this

            Normally the sonographer talks to the radiologist.  Either the sonographer or the radiologist will come into the room to tell you the results.  I've NEVER had to wait for it to filter through my primary care physician.

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              Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

              Oh thank goodness for that! BUT they better let me pee before they give me the results lol I'm thinking of wearing a pad just in case lol

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                wordscribe41posted 7 years agoin reply to this

                Oh... you can SO pee, no worries.  lol  You sound just like me...  Plus, when I am nervous I have to pee like a race horse.  Are you seriously gonna sport a Depends?

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                  Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

                  lol No not a depends just a regular pad 'cause ya never know. I do have the training of holding it for a long time (preschool teaching lol ) but still want to be prepared hahaha

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                    wordscribe41posted 7 years agoin reply to this

                    Enjoy your muscles down there while you still have 'em, CW.  Cuz, after kids OH, there is no laughing, coughing or jumping without an unfortunate consequence.  lol

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    sabrebIadeposted 7 years ago

    I go through cancer tests every 3 months since I had it back in 2007.
    It's scary I know.
    See everything as coming back fine and feel the relief that you would feel if the DR told you that.
    My Daddy used to say not to worry about something until you had a reason to.
    I know that's easier said than done, but you gotta try.
    Heck, I practice answering the phone and hearing the nurse say everything is fine.
    And think about all the prayers and healing energy you are getting.

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      Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

      thanks Sabreblade. I am sorry that you had to deal with cancer in your life. that is something I wish no one has to go through.

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        Faybe Bayposted 7 years agoin reply to this

        You are drinking lots of water yes? Oh you are in California, hours yet! Keep breathing. are you allowed to eat?

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      Phillyfreeze69posted 7 years agoin reply to this

      Hi Sabreblade,
      I am praying that your cancer stays in remission. Three week ago
      a dear friend of mine was diagnosed with lung cancer, fortunately it was diiscovered in time. She is at home recovering and going to her chemotherapy treatments. Keep a positive attitude and keep visualizing the nurse telling you the good news!

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    Ohmaposted 7 years ago

    Crazd I feel that everything will be just fine. My thoughts are with you!

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      Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

      Thanks Ohma...I hope your feelings are right smile love the new pic by the way

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    Lynda Garyposted 7 years ago

    I agree with Deborah:  Sounds like an ovarian cyst. 

    We're thinking of you.  Make sure to post when you get home!

    By the way:  Worry / stress just makes it all worse.  Chill, darlin'  smile  Slow, deep breaths.  Drop shoulders.  Inhale. Exhale.  Then make hubby take you out for a late lunch or early dinner. wink

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      Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

      hmmmm that sounds like a good idea about making hubby take me out. big_smile

      and I will definietly post once I get home. I'm trying not to worry I swear! big_smile

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    kirstenblogposted 7 years ago

    I miss hijacking threads with you lol We will have to have some forum fun maybe during the next holiday wink We shall take over Mwahahaha!

    Let me know when you know everythings ok kay? *hugs*

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      Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

      lol yea I miss those days too! we need to totally hijack a thread soon big_smile

      and will definitely let you know when I know.

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    Ohmaposted 7 years ago

    LOL yours too. and yes I have been very successful going by my gut feelings on many occasions.

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      Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

      phew that helps a bit big_smile

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    Crazdwriterposted 7 years ago

    grrrr it's only 11:08 am...HURRY UP DANG IT! lol

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    stay_home_mommy3posted 7 years ago

    Hi!  I don't really know you, but found this, and I just wanted to let you know I'm thinking about you and praying for you.  Medical tests are scary, but many times, they are all for nothing.  Take a BIG breath, and don't worry! 
    Let us know how it goes! smile

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      Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

      Thanks SHM3 I appreciate that. and welcome to hubpages

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    myownworldposted 7 years ago

    Hope all goes well with you CW! I agree with wordscribe...once you've had a baby, ultra sounds seem like a piece of cake! So just lie back and relax and think happy thoughts.....smile

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      Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

      Thanks MOW...but I can't think too positive I might fly away lol

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    cosetteposted 7 years ago

    hey, CW, just do this---it works:

    breath deep in (through your nose) with your mouth closed and count to 10.

    hold it for one second.

    breathe out while shaping your lips in an "O" shape to a count of 10.

    repeat this about five times and you will pump oxygen into your bloodstream and feel calm. i promise it works. smile

    ((hugs back))

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    Crazdwriterposted 7 years ago

    Thanks Cosette I'll definitely try that smile

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    cosetteposted 7 years ago

    smile i'll be thinking of you

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    Crazdwriterposted 7 years ago

    Thanks....just wish time would speed up a bit lol

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    Crazdwriterposted 7 years ago

    I now officially have two hours to go...and my body is NOT behaving itself AT ALL sad hmm hmm

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    Stevennix2001posted 7 years ago

    i'm sorry to hear that.  maybe you should lie down for a bit. some rest might do you some good. or take a hot shower to relax a bit.

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    Crazdwriterposted 7 years ago

    already too a hot shower and that helped a bit but then....that's when I found out my body was being a punk

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      Stevennix2001posted 7 years agoin reply to this

      oh i see.....well why don't you try lying down for a bit. maybe if you get a quick nap in before seeing the doctor, it might calm you down a bit.

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        Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

        If it was earlier than yea I would say I would do that but it is now 1:04pm here and I have to start drinking water...lots of it too lol

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          Faybe Bayposted 7 years agoin reply to this

          I thought you were gone already. I'm watching the clock for you. LOL.

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            Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

            lol I wish I was but nope time is CRAWLING right now it's not even funny lol And thanks tell the clock to hurry its arse up lol

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          Stevennix2001posted 7 years agoin reply to this

          oh i see.  im sorry to hear that.  well maybe you should do something to take your mind off of this.  it's probably just the stress getting to you. why don't you try reading a book or watching tv for a bit to take your mind off things.

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            Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

            I'm watching LA Ink right now smile

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              Stevennix2001posted 7 years agoin reply to this

              that's cool.  well, hopefully it'll take your mind off of this whole ordeal.

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                Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

                I hope but I doubt it...when I stress and worry I stress and worry until I find out everything is okay or whatever...it's just how I am..

                Hubby HATES it! But that is how I am

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    Crazdwriterposted 7 years ago

    Well time to chug water and not allowed to pee yikes I can do this...I can do this...I can do this... lol

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      Faybe Bayposted 7 years agoin reply to this

      Yeah as long as you don't laugh, you won't pee. or pixar either.

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        Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

        lol don't start Faybe yer gonna make me laugh and have to pee now lol

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      H.C Porterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

      I hate that... I had to do that a few times during pregnancy-along with the dont eat after midnight cause you gotta have tests done the next morning... Telling a pregnant chick not to pee or not to eat for an extended period of time... Yeah right!
      BUT YOU CAN DO IT- Just dont think about waterfalls or dripping faucets big_smile

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        Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

        Oh thanks H.C. NOW I will think of those lol thankfully those don't make me need to pee more lol

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          Faybe Bayposted 7 years agoin reply to this

          Well, it never rains in California, so you should be fine. I mean, it isn't going to rain, is it? I mean as long as you don't get wet, you should be fine...

          Maybe take an umbrella.

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            Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

            lol FAYBE! HUSH! lol lol lol

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    H.C Porterposted 7 years ago

    Fingers Crossed for Good News!!!  Positive thoughts for you my dear  smile

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    Crazdwriterposted 7 years ago

    So if yu ever wonder where I got my mean streak from ...it's my mom

    I just texted her that I have to pee...she texted me bad with "too bad he he"

    yikes Mean mommy! lol

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      Faybe Bayposted 7 years agoin reply to this

      lol lol lol She sounds like me... maybe we are related. smile

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        Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

        Hmmm maybe we are lol big_smile

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    Crazdwriterposted 7 years ago

    Drank all the water I needed to..I think lol and now just waiting for hubby to come home and pick me up

    UGH i feel like i'm going to throw up seriously! More ways to torture the hell out of women tongue hmm

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      Faybe Bayposted 7 years agoin reply to this

      Yeah... That's was why I wondered if you could eat earlier. probably toast after will help. Toast is good for everything.

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        Crazdwriterposted 7 years agoin reply to this

        I made myself around 10...egg in toast big_smile 2 of them it was really good but now my tummy is pissed off lol great! Not waht I needed

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          Faybe Bayposted 7 years agoin reply to this

          pixared off? lol Sorry. lol

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    Crazdwriterposted 7 years ago

    lol you are bad Faybe you are bad! lol

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      Faybe Bayposted 7 years agoin reply to this

      We'll await your next post.

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    wordscribe41posted 7 years ago

    Good luck, CW.  You must be sloshing around by now.  Keep us posted, okay!

 
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