dealing with depretion for 10 years... since i was 4

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    amberdragonposted 13 years ago

    ive been dealing with depression for 10 years now. i am 14 and still dont know how to get rid of this sadness. its lie ka pool ow water. i am sinking in that pool of water. around me swim threats, nad other saddnesses. sometimes someone might reach in that pool to pull me back up. but i only come up sofar. i might pull them down with me. ive hit rockbottom. the weeds down there have elclosed around me. i dont want to struggle upwards anymore. i am ready to just stop holding my breath anld let the water consume me. id like to suiside.

    1. IzzyM profile image89
      IzzyMposted 13 years agoin reply to this

      Amber, how would your mum feel if you committed suicide? She'd be devastated! Hang in, kiddo! Things can only get better.

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        amberdragonposted 13 years agoin reply to this

        idk its a good point.. but when i told her she acted as if it where nothign

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      Sowkgradposted 13 years agoin reply to this

      Amber -- find a way to get involved in something -- volunteer at a nursing home maybe.  You will find rather quickly that you are loved and wanted.  You will become the bright spot in someone's day.  In fact -- I bet you already are.  There's a old saying (and I'm probably going to mess it up) "To the world you might only be one person but to one person you might mean the world!!"  Re: your mom -- she might be old school honey and think she has to keep her response low key as not to "push you over the ledge".  For a long time -- it was thought that by talking about suicide - you were encouraging it.  And many parents/professionals worry that it's a trap -- a way to control those around you.  You know -- the whole "I'm just gonna kill myself if you don't let me ........"  If you can't rely on her to help you through this -- look for another adult you trust.

  2. KCC Big Country profile image85
    KCC Big Countryposted 13 years ago

    Amber, the fact that you're reaching out to people tells me that you really don't want to die.  You frustrated and just need help.  Is there a grown-up that you can trust? Anyone? Call someone, or go see someone. Make them understand how you feel.  There are plenty of people to help you.

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      amberdragonposted 13 years agoin reply to this

      i do tend to adore older people... and i geuss its true that im frusterated.. tho i have an unexplanable fear of help... thats y im online.. becaseu nobody really knows who i am... nobody can tease me about being like this...

  3. schoolgirlforreal profile image77
    schoolgirlforrealposted 13 years ago

    hi. i know what you mean. i feel that way right now

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      amberdragonposted 13 years agoin reply to this

      im sorry to hear that.. i geuss... ill do that..

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      snoweposted 13 years agoin reply to this

      That is true only prayer can help you from now on...Pray and pray you will find the answer..

      1. Pcunix profile image92
        Pcunixposted 13 years agoin reply to this

        This kind of stuff infuriates me.

        Mental problems can be very serious.  Prayer may help a theist get out of a funk, but it won't cure serious issues. Unfortunately, foolish people may think that it can because of well meaning but very dangerous advice like that.

        Prayers will not help. Seek out a medical professional.

  4. Jesusjohn78 profile image66
    Jesusjohn78posted 13 years ago

    I know this sounds stupid but pick up a hobby that involves your hands.  Like sowing or gardening or crocheting.  Anything really that you can find that you like that requires a lot of use of your hands.  Doing hand intensive activities release chemicals in your body that will fight depression naturally.

    1. kathryn1000 profile image61
      kathryn1000posted 13 years agoin reply to this

      I agree with that

    2. Nick Malizia profile image61
      Nick Maliziaposted 13 years agoin reply to this

      Really? That's fascinating.

  5. EPman profile image60
    EPmanposted 13 years ago

    This is by no means an ultimate solution to your problem, but it would be a step in a positive direction:

    Exercise. Regularly. Develop a routine of fitness that you commit to and succeed at. This works enormous wonders on the psyche.

  6. Pcunix profile image92
    Pcunixposted 13 years ago

    Why is a 14 year old a member here?

    1. couturepopcafe profile image60
      couturepopcafeposted 13 years agoin reply to this

      Good question.  Are they not allowed?

      1. Pcunix profile image92
        Pcunixposted 13 years agoin reply to this

        Supposed to be 18.

  7. couturepopcafe profile image60
    couturepopcafeposted 13 years ago

    Amber - often depression is a reaction to a lack of chemical in the brain needed for right thinking and perspective.  You say you've been depressed since age 4 which tells me you may be severely lacking in some brain neurotransmitter or you could simply be low on something as simple as omega 3 fatty acids, necessary for brain function.  Start intensive vitamin therapy, multiple vitamin/mineral complex, including vit.D, and fish oil caps.  Eat small amounts of protein with every meal and drink plenty of water which your brain needs to function.  Don't skip breakfast.  Drink milk.  Eat fruit.  Be diligent in this.  Just as a car can't run without the right fuel, neither can your brain.  And stay away from watching tv shows which contain crime, hospitals, vampires, strife among friends, tension of any kind.  Watch comedy only.  What you put into your mind has a direct effect on your mood.  Stop listening to music for a while if you can't listen to happy lyrics.

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    sureal07posted 13 years ago

    Many people face depression in their life time. The good news is that it can be overcome with changing your life style. There are support groups for depression, where you can meet other members who share similar concerns as you do. Changing your diet: eating organic fruits, vegetables, beans, and grains. Mild yoga, walking, deep breathing exercise to consume more oxygen can help a great deal. When you change the biochemistry in your body, you can overcome depression.

    I overcame my depression, stress, and low self esteem when I was diagnosed with cancer. But with time, I changed my lifestyle, eating habits, believing in God, and exercising.

  9. SteveoMc profile image72
    SteveoMcposted 13 years ago

    A person who has suffered from depression for this length of time is suffering needlessly.   This is a condition that can be treated with very good success.   It requires a trip to the doctor or local mental health agency.   It is important to seek assistance because you can start feeling better right away.

    As for prayer, it does not hurt, but without the support of a church community, it may not be helpful, indeed, it may have the opposite effect of isolating a person.   Most churches have mental health and pastoral counseling available.   They are not just praying either, they are connected to the larger community and make referrals to the community mental health agencies and even in some cases provide approved treatments for mental health.  For example, Catholic Community Services are an approved mental health agency, provide foster care, group homes, hospitalizations, and work in psychiatric settings.

    Anyone who is feeling suicidal should seek assistance immediately, there are lots of resources available.  A 14 year old can get help by contacting a school counselor, church pastor, their doctor, school nurse, mental health agency, or trusted adults.  An emergency room at any hospital can treat and refer any suicidal person.  A mental health professional will be brought in and a short hospitalization for diagnoses is possible.

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