yep, two times over, i lost my grandmother and sister in the same year. My grandmother committed suicide and my sister died from cancer in her late 20's leaving two kids behind. I am mad and still sadden with their passing, i think about it everyday and it hurts like hell.
For me, it has been things I never thought to fear that have been my biggest nightmares. Some fears I've had have come true, but I guess they haven't particularly been my greatest fears (for the most part, anyway).