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Random Poetry, Poems, & Verse About Looking at Life From My Random Mind - Reflections of Me and Who I am

Updated on June 28, 2014
"Worthy of Reflection" From the collection of Walfrido Garcia,  At the Genesis Gallery, Hawaii
"Worthy of Reflection" From the collection of Walfrido Garcia, At the Genesis Gallery, Hawaii | Source

Reflection

Alone at the precipice

The wind blows cold

I'm looking down from above

On my weary heart

And ragged soul

Knowing the truths

Did they come to late?

Will I find that deceit

Has sealed my fate?

Who am I now?

Who was I then?

If I don't know now,

Will I know in the end?


Questions

Will anyone notice

When I'm not around?

When a heart shatters

Does it make a sound?

Can you love someone

Give all that you've got,

Still never finding

The love that you sought?

What do you do

When everything isn't enough?

Do you throw in the towel

Because the going got tough?

When you know in your heart

You love someone more than they love you,

Do you stay anyway,

Ignoring the truth?

Should you allow yourself to settle

Into something less?

Come to believe

You deserve less than the best?

Do you fade into the shadows

Until you cannot be found?

Still wondering if a breaking heart

Actually makes a sound?

Staying your course,

Knowing where you're bound,

Wondering all the time who will notice,

When I'm not around?

Because, Because, Because......
Because, Because, Because...... | Source

Because

It awakens again

That searing pain,

To singe my heart

With burning flame.

It came tonight

To steal my dreams,

Reminding me

Nothings is ever as it seems.

With its razor tongue

Piercing talons and claws,

Ripping away at the peace

It's only reason because.

Because,

I forgot the lesson,

I began again to hope,

This is the reason my sanity

Now dangles from this precarious rope.

Because,

I listened to my heart,

Wanted so much to believe,

I am getting this slap in the face

I so very much deserve to receive.

For the countless times

I just didn't learn

I am getting the prize

I've so painstakingly have earned.

It came again tonight

Scarring my heart and soul,

Damaging half

So that I am not whole.

Never again will I......
Never again will I...... | Source
I don't want to be disposable!
I don't want to be disposable!

Disposable

I've grown tired of being

The disposable one,

So carelessly discarded

Pushed off to the side,

For everyone's sake

Ignoring the pain that I hide.

I've grown weary

Beneath my smile

Of total indifference

Of the games people play,

Of looking for self-worth

In the words they don't say.

I've exhausted my spirit

Giving until I am empty

Yet somehow giving again,

They take more than I offer

While I wait for life to begin

I've depleted my soul

And my courage,

My patience, my strength,

My now tattered heart,

Desperate for this family

Of which I'll never be a part.

I've worn out my faith

On this cross that I bear,

Sacrificing all that I have

All that was me,

Upon the altar of a dream

That just never could be.


Never Again

I've been here before

Though I've said, "never again."

My heart and my soul

Are jagged and torn,

My faith and ideals,

Are threadbare and worn.

There is no one who sees me

Out here in the dark,

There's no one who knows

The pain that I hide.

The days and the years

The tears that I cry.

Betrayal after betrayal,

When is enough truly enough?

Who will it be?

The one who decides,

Will it be you?

Or will it be me?


A Declaration Of Self

Who am I now?

Who was I back then?

Are they the same

From beginning to end?

Are they two separate beings

One innocent, one jaded,

By promises broken

Illusions now faded?

And what of you?

Faith and loyalty you swore,

When your honor is tested

You slide out the back door.

If it is true that I've changed

How dare you despair

At my life rearranged?

What gives you the right

To throw up your hands

Now that i will no longer

Jump to your commands?

Why is it now

You seem to find me so crucial

When you've said all along our allegiance

Was purely superficial?

Why do you believe

You can sit in judgement of me

When the weight of your own sin

Leaves you unable to see?

The venom you spew

Taints everything in your life,

So I ask you again,

What gives you the right?

I am who I am

Different of the same,

I've found my own voice,

I won't be part of your game!

I'll live my own life

By the rules that I've set,

By the things I believe,

Principles I cannot forget.

I will not apologize

For the things that are real,

For honor or for truth,

For the things that I feel.

For my understanding

Of things both wrong and right,

For ways that I've changed

Or battles I deem worthy to fight,

My decisions are all mine

My mistakes, they are too

This is my life to live

It doesn't belong to you!

© 2011 Kristen Burns-Darling

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