"When I am drinking"
I am all alone in this house of pain
everything I ever do brings me to shame
in this house of pain
I surely must surrender
or stand nothing to gain
in this house of pain
and in this house of pain
I cry out to be delivered
for God to bring His rain
let it fall on this lonely man
give me strength to rise again
and to conquer this house of pain
Anyone who knows the struggle may comment.
Those who knew someone can too.
Or anyone really.
I stopped living in that house in 2008, I had to surrender to my HP and start living. It's not easy, but there's nothing like sobriety.
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Thanks for reading and commenting.
Transparency is the best thing for all people.
Some struggle with this and that, but all struggle with something and cannot seem to admit they are powerless over whatever it might be in their lives.
Until this happens, they are locked up and in a state of self denial.
It just so happens that my struggle was
drink in hand i reply . you are not alone. i to am in need of regaining my footing. but where to stand? i think its up.
I know someone who is living in that house, but cannot find his way out. The pain reverberates through out the family causing pain to everyone who has to live with, experience,and watch the prison that this person cannot seem to get paroled from. He serves the sentence that is handed down to him from the bottle.
I can totally understand this. I was at a place for a long time where I was drinking morning, noon and night and then waking up at night to drink so I could go back to sleep.
Got up to a 5th (750mil) a day plus beer!!!
Then one night I got a visit and the next day the desire was gone completely!!!
The "way out" is to SURRENDER!!!...just like in a war...you have to realize you are conquered and defeated totally.
Nobody can convince you of this though.
Quietness said :
'The "way out" is to SURRENDER!!!...just like in a war...you have to realize you are conquered and defeated totally.'
Yeah and so hard to do, nobody likes to SURRENDER at all.
as a addict i think a lot about the why. i tend to think we are in search of something. not just a high or a escape .but for something beyond this lifes reach.
Everyone tries to fill the void with something that costs them everything eventually.
For some it is food, some is is money, some it is sex, some it is alcohol and drugs, some it is wanting to be a star, some it is control, some it is greed, some gossip, some anger, some pretending, some living an illusion, some minding someone else's business and on and on and on it goes until the come to the end of themselves and...yep!!!
You cannot live until you live outside of yourself and become transparent.
Well I know what you mean.
If someone has better way of doing things or better ideas, I can willingly admit that and "surrender to them"...so to speak. Esp. if they can help me in my life or work.
But I am free to leave at anytime too....you must be careful.
Just saying in general that if you surrender to someone else's ideas because it is better and then you choose to leave them behind, just be careful as to why you go away.
Sometimes you have to, even if you don't want to do it
Battle of bottles
I do not suffer this personal pain,
But watched my friend suffer this shame,
Years in years out he endured this pain,
But knew not how to shake this shame.
I believed the best thing is to make up the mind,
And seek to get professional help of some kind,
It's hard to travel the road alone,
But there is help in numbers in the battle of bottles
My friend lost his battle for he fought alone,
His liver was damaged and in his heart a hole,
There is nothing but death in the field of bottles
Get the help of others in fighting the battle of bottles.
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