Where you abused in any way by someone you knew?
Sometimes individuals are abused by someone they know and are scared to talk about it.
Yes. My mother was very young when she had me. She had married a man who was very cruel to me. Then I was placed with my grandmother. I believe my grandmother may have had some forms of mental health issues. While she cared for me the best she could, she also did some very disturbing things. It's amazing I made it out of that situation at all. My mother came back after moving out of state for many years, and continuously has tried to do hurtful things so I have very little contact. But she is very intrusive. It took something from within me to realize I'm not like them. I am my own individual person. No matter what happened in the past, it didn't define who I am.
But in being brought up through these difficult circumstances, it brought me to my first husband. I married a man just like them, and at the time I didn't realize it. So that added impact to injury.
Eventually, I found the strength to file for divorce myself. When I won in court, I also won a lot of respect from people from my family. And I told all of them, if they can only respect me for winning in court, and not seeing how I overcame everything I went through at the hands of some really sick individuals, then I am not impressed.
When I was in the first AND second grades my brother and I were baby sat by my grandparents after school while my mother had to work. For these two full school years my grandmother would stand over me while I would urinate into the toilet and watch me pass urine. Then when I finished she would hold my genitals and wipe them "clean".
I protested these actions but it did no good. I even went to my mother and told her what was happening and how it made me feel all icky. Mom only told me that this was grandma's way of acting and that I should not pay any attention to it.
I am sorry but this was sexual abuse to hold my genitals. It did a lot of psychological damage to me and yet I had no say In the matter. This happened in the early 1950's when there was no protection for children being molested as I was.
It took a lot of prayer and reflection but I have been able to forgive both my mother and grandmother. They have both passed away and are with God I hope.
They say that time heals all wounds, but I can still remember being sexually abused as if it were yesterday. I guess it really never does go away, does it?
Thanks for having such great articles. I only wish I were as articulate as you are here.
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