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   h.a.borcichposted 14 years ago

   I wasn't sure where to make this post. I thought maybe I should just pop it under the food thread but it seemed cowardly. I considered posting it under the health section, but that felt like admitting defeat. I thought of posting this in the christian living forum, but was too certain it would casually become a mockery. So I am posting it here in the hubbers hangout as I am a hubber.
     The fight is on once again with the cancer. Options are fewer and the stakes too high to be distracted by anything. I need to focus my energy into healing and the relationships I treasure most.
      I love the forums and the hubbers who I have been able to get to know, but the drain by those who only berate is too stressing. I will miss the sharing of ideas and the smiles brought by finding a cache of cool hubs. I won't be taking down my hubs - just not publishing more or hitting the forums.
     Thank you to those who have bridged a friendship and/or mentored me as I found hub pages. Thanks also to all the writers who have hubs I have learned from, laughed with or have been inspired by.
     Those of you who pray - please add me to your prayers.
     Now to get myself into Warrior mode - Battle on! Holly

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      prettydarkhorseposted 14 years agoin reply to this

      I will pray for you and take my HUGS of comfort!

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      Valerie Fposted 14 years agoin reply to this

      Holly, you know you'll have me in your corner, too. I have to add that every time I think I have hard times, someone comes along who does a much better job holding up through tougher difficulties- like you.

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      Uninvited Writerposted 14 years agoin reply to this

      We'll all be wishing the best for you, good luck.
      
      I kept trying to start positive threads this weekend but they keep getting buried in the arguing...

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   Hauntyposted 14 years ago

   I'm sorry to hear this, Holly. Hang in there, you will win the battle again. If God sends us on strong paths, we are provided strong shoes!

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   wordscribe41posted 14 years ago

   Oh, Holly.  I am so sorry to hear you're going through this again.  You are such a strong woman, it shows in your every forum post and hub.  If anyone can fight this, you can.  We will miss you here, but I understand your need to focus on your battle, of course.  Perhaps you could shoot up a hub to let us know how you're doing somewhere along the line????  Sending you virtual hugs and good thoughts.

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   Rafiniposted 14 years ago

   I'll be thinking of you and adding you to my prayers.

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   rebekahELLEposted 14 years ago

   be brave, be well Holly.  thoughts are with you.

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   europewalkerposted 14 years ago

   Holly, wishing you the best, stay strong. My prayers are with you.

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   IzzyMposted 14 years ago

   Holly, same goes for me even though we don;t really know eah other. I didn't know you were going through this - I am so sorry hun. Fight on

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   h.a.borcichposted 14 years ago

   Hi and thanks for the prayers!
   
   One thing I failed to ask that I really wanted to - If you know of a hub that may be helpful to me - please post the link. I hope this isn't against any rules. I am interested in the following :
   Metestatic bladder cancer
   upper tract bladder cancer
   alternative treatments for cancer
   complimentary medicine - God Bless!

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   Jane@CMposted 14 years ago

   Holly,
   
   You will be added to my prayers.  Hang tough!

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    wyanjenposted 14 years ago

    Deep breath....  then on to the fight.
    
    Stay strong and stay smiling Holly.
    If you think of anything else that we could do for you, just ask. We're all here for you.
    
    
    

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    Beth100posted 14 years ago

    Holly,
    
    Research Essaic.  It's all natural, and has helped many with ailing health, including cancer and tumors.  I can't vouch for it myself, but I know several people who have followed the plan religiously and saw positive results.  Here is the original Canadian link: http://www.essiac-canada.com 
    
    You are in my thoughts and prayers.  Remember, we are given tasks that may seem too big for us to bear, but within, we find the strength to overcome the obstacles. 
    
    I'll miss you while you are on your journey of healing, but will be waiting eagerly for your return.
    
    Lots of love and hugs Holly!  xoxo

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       h.a.borcichposted 14 years agoin reply to this

       
       
         Hi Beth,
         Yes Essiac tea has incredible medicinal powers and it is something I am currently using. When I was diagnosed with bone mets to my hip and put on palliative care, I sought out a naturopath. She put me on a path that included essiac tea and had me add other herbs and roots to target the other health issues pressing me. Also I went on a regiment of plant enzymes, chlorophyll, and a highly alkalizing diet without sugar. The essiac was by far the hardest to choke dowm...it is more like a sediment looking swamp water type of tea!
         In a few months those particular bone mets were not discernable by Mayo or Northwestern!
         Now I am dealing with trying to save my right kidney. Both of my ureters (tubes from kidneys) are showing suspicious signs of spread as well. I have friends who are surviving without a bladder or a kidney and rely on daily dialysis.
         I am dealing with infection of the kidney right now. It is giving me a week or two to make some choices and do research to make decisions. I am confident we will have a plan in place by midmonth.
         Thanks for the suggestion and for the ((hugs)) Holly

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    ThoughtfulSpotposted 14 years ago

    "Battle on", indeed Holly!  I've just said a prayer, and I'm sure there are many others coming your way.
    
    You will be missed around here, but please take care of yourself in any way you can.  If focusing your energy, and leaving us for a time is the best route for you, then you must take it.  Do what you need, do what you can and know that there are heartfelt thoughts and prayers from the people here you have touched.
    
    Positive thoughts your way...
    -TS

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    Originposted 14 years ago

    Our prayers are with you! Stay strong and you shall overcome

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    h.a.borcichposted 14 years ago

    Just an update... Tomorrow is a big day meeting with Drs and getting results of recent tests. Likely there will be a few more imaging tests and likely am invasive procedure for biopsies.
    Trying to stay calm. Thanks for the prayers, Holly
    PS I have really enjoyed the forums this past week, I needed a distraction.

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       Money Glitchposted 14 years agoin reply to this

       Thanks for providing and update, Holly. Sending up prayers and good thoughts your way!

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    Linda Myshrallposted 14 years ago

    Holly,
    
    I believe in prayer, and I believe in miracles.  I will pray for your miracle...
    
    A year and a half ago my mom's lung cancer reached 4-1/2 inches, it metastasized to her other lung, then her pancreas and liver.  They gave her less than 3 months to live...  no hope ever of remission.  Today, the big tumor is 1" and all metas are gone... a partial remission.  Yes, a miracle!
    
    Hang onto that attitude of yours and your faith.
    
    Kick that cancer's tail!
    
    Good luck tomorrow

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    h.a.borcichposted 14 years ago

    Well, indeed I am trying to kick it's tail
    
    As I expected, there are a few more tests to get through One of the more important tests came back with inconclusive results.
    
    On the 15th I meet a few more specialists who should have some answers. In the meantime I am dealing with quite a bit of nausea, pain and frustration that parts are malfunctioning.
    
    Thanks for the prayers, it matters and helps. Holly

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    wyanjenposted 14 years ago

    

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    h.a.borcichposted 14 years ago

    Hi,
      Met with the specialists last week about the bone tumor in my shoulder. One is certain it is malignant and the other thinks it is not yet definitively malignant. The one who is "certain" is fairly certain it has metasticized to the lungs. So tomorrow I am having a chest ct then meeting with the drs again right after. Needless to say I am nervous. Right now I am certain drs "practice" medicine.
    They have mentioned radiation as a method for pain relief which is appealing.  Thanks for the prayers, Holly

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    habeeposted 14 years ago

    From one Holly to another, we're with you 110%! I'll send up a special prayer and send lots of positive thoughts your way!

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    donotfearposted 14 years ago

    I'm with you , Holly. On your side. May God guide you and direct you to place you at the right place, at the right time, & with the right doctors to help win the fight.  Don't give up.....

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    h.a.borcichposted 14 years ago

    Hi and Thanks, Dr called and said he will confer with the other drs and call back Monday. He said chest ct looked ok! I am grateful for that. Now to deal with the tumor, Holly

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