This is truly a tough question. This is my second post here. The first I still am in agreement with. Yet, since, with all that life has offered me I would say, "this is a very complex question when Loved ones come into the picture." There are so many factions coming into play. Trust becomes evasive with the pros and cons being offered.
The media played with this and one may ponder two books "One Flew Over the Cukoo's Nest" and "Catch 22." Then pondering having the capacity to read those controversial books contemplate "Fahrenheit 451." Lastly the line between saying yes or no is could be likened to one degree or as in this video if allowed 212: The Extra Degree I ask to ponder the question proposed with this forum question.
The dance is with subjectivity and objectivity and the social organism. Left alone fate tells the story if in a wilderness. Now a movie about depression some may have seen, yet not realized is titled "Jeremiah Johnson" with Robert Redford in the staring role. Another of Mania is "Phenomenon" though told another way. Familiar truths will be discovered, like the garden scene with the obsessive hoeing taking place contrasting with the wind called Mirah or Maria by some. Those who are intimate with both Depression and Mania may say, "yeah" while others enjoy the story not really knowing, yet a glimpse is shared.
A key element is the burden associated with it within the confines of social structure. Personally, I have one major goal in this life. I do not want to be a burden to my family with this blessing I have with a diagnosis of bipolar disorder type I that dances with depersonalization and derealization. For explanations Google it.
Persons of this temperament know, that is just a fact, they know. There are libraries dedicated to depression. So, I ask who has read all those books? Then one who does not know says, "I am an expert, listen to me." OK, they in the world of religion are a theist, yet not gnostic. The gnostic is a theist, yet have a yearning to share the gnostic. OK, that was an analogy. I have to be careful you see, a burden of sorts, since religiosity is a symptom of BP. Or, in the land of literature and cinema - lions, tigers, and bears, oh my . . .
I am neither depressed nor manic. Maybe a tad of hypomanic, yet not really. I am moving from theta toward alpha. Yes, I can tell because I practiced and practiced and practiced and some more to recognize it facilitating a site, which can be found here BrainWave Generator
But, realizing I may have written a hub off the cusp, sort to speak, maybe I have laid groundwork for the inquisitive mind of more authority and knowledge than I-eye, captain. That is a result of still having a degree of theta, not BP, get it! Then comes into play the knowledge of the video shared of that one degree of difference between theta and beta. In other words give me a math problem now and WTF comes to mind. But, ask me to write and I'm off and running. Sometimes it just is not moods, which are not emotions - see Plutchik's wheel of emotions for reference, it is riding the wave that will not go away like a surfer at Tamarak Beach or anywhere.
And, suddenly, someone says, give them ECT, that will work. Is that a cry of desperation of those who are afraid of difference when one grows I ask? Bring that person back, we just don't understand is cried. A question is then proposed by the person of question. Do I agree with the social organism and be what they want me to be or do I say F'it and head away with a mighty leap or it is just too much to decide so, su***** becomes the answer. How sad is that?
Destructive behavior may ensue at that point seeking relief not of emotion or mood, but of the question? TG I'm a diabetic. God gave to me a little blessing. I don't have to use a knife to check if I'm alive, ha,ha, I just poke myself 4 or more times a day, yup there is blood, I must be alive, question solved, move forward.
OK,now becomes the biggest question of all. Do I dare post this here at a hubpages forum question knowing social responsibility and all that stuff. Will what I wrote cause others to be mixed and betwixt. Or, will it cause another, maybe one to seek help with those questions as Eric Clapton described saying, "running round my brain." Isn't it funny how many times persons of BP are asked to take a random drug test, ha,ha . . .they just don't get it, it is a natural occurring event to be happy. It takes work to cause it to go away. It is much easier like to be a baby of a few months giggling and laughing. We are taught to be sad. It is not natural. And, then the cure for happiness is ECT.
Saddness or depression is the result of questions with no answers. Simple enough. Help them discover the answer and don't tell them. I'm off on a rant, I ask your forgiveness. Now this is a free writing exercise, as I call it. The question remains - do I post it and share?
OK, what was the question, lol, I'm closer to beta now. Less spontaneity regarding creativity. And, the question becomes do I move the other way and take a nap then head to delta. Be assured to function now means more coffee or suck down a 5hr energy.
Yet, those who are learning, rummaging through all this word association stuff, ponder this question? Think of all the audible noises of a city. They each have an affect leading to an effect. Mix that with the visual of zippppp zappppp zippppp in town traffic is now what 40mph. The speed of a thought only goes about 3mph. The other senses are mute, kinda' then someone thinks they are smart, talks on a phone, going 70mph, sucking on a soda, now we have taste, remember now how fast a thought goes, wow did you see that, no its gone, before you know - crash. Please be careful when you drive and text!
OK, decision made. I'm posting this. I thank any who read for the indulgence of their time. Did I answer the question. If loved ones are concerned, my love for them would lead me to say, yup I would, If I was alone like today, nope I wouldn't I know how to survive and be a successful BP'er . . .thank you
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