Mystified Affection~Poem

Wishing you would call, I stare at the phone.

Wondering what you’re doing as I sit all alone.

You entered my life for a reason, this I’m sure.

Gave me laughter, strength and confidence,

then I began to feel much more.

I never knew that I could feel this way,

or that sensation could become so strong.

Unable to turn the radio on, for I’m reminded of you by song.

I try to overlook the things that my mind is going through.

The passion and comfort that I seek, I only find in you.

You have read my thoughts and emotions when I didn’t even know they were there.

In your eyes I can value the security from the stern yet protective stare.

Your control gives me the freedom to not have to lead.

For once instead of holding it together, it’s ok to sometimes need.

Why do I get tingles when you reach out for my hand?

Are these the things I’ve been missing? I don’t quite understand.

My first thought when the morning sun rises and last one at night.

Sometimes I cry silently for my chaos is a disturbing fight.

Unaware hurt could dig so deep into the life I’m challenged to live.

I never realized I could plead so easily, overlook and forgive.

If I could put up a barrier and forbid to let you in,

I would lose the battle between heart and mind, therefore neither could win.

I do not comprehend all of the feelings that are pouring through,

All I know is that my heart hasn’t felt this for anyone but you.

Having someone to look up to helps me see above the ground,

Is this what I’ve always heard about, could it be love that I have found?

I wonder how to except what I never had before.

Pondering over turning off the emotions for the one that I adore.

Is it possible to lose something you never even had?

Can I keep concealing the conflict? Is my brawl really that bad?

I presume I found my weakness, one that I thought I’d never know,

Will the fault someday get stronger as love for another starts to grow?

We can’t help who we fall for or why we sink so deep.

It’s a constant struggle when a few small steps turn into a giant leap.

©COPYRIGHT April 2012 by lifesparadox