You should be honest enough to hold yourself accountable. It's insanity that someone has to do this for you. 
Can you prove this so-called "GOD" even exists. If not, then oh well, must be your imagination working overtime.
Okay, first off, I don't claim to be PERFECT, as you've now claim that I have. There is injustice in the world, because a few control the millions/billions of people, while those millions/billions don't realize it.
Do yourself a favor? Don't come at me with your petty ramblings of a supposed "GOD" figure, you expect for some odd reason, to be your judge. What you cannot do it yourself? You cannot control your own actions and hold yourself accountable. Then, I would say there is something wrong with you.
If you are a rational individual, then obviously you wouldn't fear life or death, because you would have a better understanding of life and death.
As for my ability to discern truth about my life, has allowed me to pass by the fear of death and not worry about a fantasy form of judgment, for which, might or might not, happen AFTER I'm already dead.
Before you ramble on, I suggest you gain a better grasp of reality and understand life. Otherwise, what's the purpose of living, if you don't understand your life. It isn't to just live, that's for sure. 
Either way, be honest - hold yourself accountable and learn more. 