I haven't been married, but engaged. I found out later on that during the 2 and a half years, she lied constantly, cheated, and did many other things. I could be ok with someone being less than perfect, but I can't be ok with someone being a liar. It's hard though. You get into these habits, that will never be the same. Just last night, True Blood season 3 premiered, and we used to lay together after we both got done showering after our long Sundays, in which we would spend with my family, and hop in bed and watch it, because it's a late show. She'd be in her shorts and a tank top, and me in my boxers, and she'd cuddle up to me, and wrap her leg around me. Her warmth was the most comfortable thing in the world, and watching it last night, alone, was hard. No matter how good the episode was, something was missing, and a lot of things are like that now. I truly thought I loved HER, but I loved what she was pretending to be. It's not easy, loving someone so much and then no longer having them around.