Escobana

Latina woman, Bipolar, 49 and Virgo. I'm awfully honest and an open book. I speak without a filter. I scare men away instantly even though I ache for love.

With my fierceness, independent character and sexual charisma, I always attract and the wrong type of men. I love adventures! I am my own contradiction.

An adopted 'Latina baby girl' educated within the Dutch culture and language. I clash throughout life with my roots and impulsive character. I am confused by nature.

I discovered recently, I´m a master in being anything for everyone. Yet, I am never the person I wanted to become. I am an amazing actress as acting became my coping mechanism. I need survival strategies to keep myself alive going from one crisis to other.

I wouldn´t be here if it wasn´t for my strong sense of humour. Weird people like me the most. And I like and love them back. Easily and unconditionally.

In the Spotlight

Thank God, I Don't Have Children! Bipolar Disorder Made Me Choose Wisely.

Questions about pregnancy, Bipolar Disorder and every risk there is to take. Wise decisions can guarantee a life long stability. I chose the hard way but ended up to be stronger than ever before.

In the Spotlight

Balancing Life after 7 Sunny Years

Balancing life every 7 years is a good way to estimate whether you've reached your goals. It will help you to set new goals as well as to keep up the balanced life you want to live.

In the Spotlight

Valencia, Spain. The Best City to Explore by Bicycle!

Valencia is a real Spanish city. You will enjoy good food, great wine and lovely people. You might visit once and move to this city. Like I did.

In the Spotlight

Adoption. A Thank You Letter to My Birthmum for Giving Me Up.

My birthmother. Is she still alive? Does she want to be found and if we finally meet, will I think back of the Tarrot Card reading in Valencia, Spain?

In the Spotlight

Losing My Virginity Over and Over

Losing your virginity is much more than doing it for the very first time. Irreversible changes happen in life to make you grow as a person. I'll tell you about mine.

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  Thinking Positive

  Balancing Life after 7 Sunny Years

  8 years ago

  Balancing life every 7 years is a good way to estimate whether you've reached your goals. It will help you to set new goals as well as to keep up the balanced life you want to live.

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  Poems & Poetry

  A Poem: Paris. The Essence of My Urge.

  11 years ago

  Why Paris has been the missing link, in facing my deepest fears to finally do what I wanted to do. To live my life underneath the warmth and comfort of the exquisit Spanish sun in Valencia.

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  Narcissistic Personality Disorder

  Letting Go of My Narcissistic Sweetheart - A Choice Between Love, Hope and Sanity

  8 years ago

  The end of a series of Hubs on my relationship with a man I never really got to know.

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  Spain

  Free Ordinary and Extraordinary Walks Through Valencia - Plaza de la Reina

  10 years ago

  A short walk through another beautiful part of Valencia, Spain. Be enchanted and finish your walk with a tasty chocolate fondue at Plaza de la Reina!

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  Spain

  Free Ordinary and Extraordinary Walks Through Valencia - El Carmen

  9 years ago

  Walk with me in 30 minutes through the most beautiful part of Valencia, Spain.

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  Spain

  Valencia, Spain. The Best City to Explore by Bicycle!

  8 years ago

  Valencia is a real Spanish city. You will enjoy good food, great wine and lovely people. You might visit once and move to this city. Like I did.

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  Adoption

  Adoption. A Thank You Letter to My Birthmum for Giving Me Up.

  11 years ago

  My birthmother. Is she still alive? Does she want to be found and if we finally meet, will I think back of the Tarrot Card reading in Valencia, Spain?

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  Bipolar Disorders

  Why I Love My Medication? Bipolar Disorder and All of the Excuses.

  18 months ago

  Bipolar Disorder and medication belong together like the sun and the moon. How do you cope with your medication? What beauty lies in mental stability?

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  Essays

  Losing My Virginity Over and Over

  18 months ago

  Losing your virginity is much more than doing it for the very first time. Irreversible changes happen in life to make you grow as a person. I'll tell you about mine.

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  European Holidays

  Welcome to Valencia in Winter! Get Ready for the Lights!

  6 years ago

  Winter in Valencia is like a sea of lights. No beach weather but certainly as beautiful as Paris and Londen.

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  Adoption

  Forever Grateful or Forever Lost? Adopted Without Having the Chance to Build my Own Family

  8 years ago

  Adopting a child in order to save a dream, might be the wrong choice.

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  Adoption

  Forever Grateful or Forever Lost? Questions to Ask Before You Meet Your Biological Family

  10 years ago

  How many questions can you ask yourself when you decide to look for your biological parents? What do you need to know as the adoptive parent, when your child is ready to look for their biological familymembers?

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  Adoption

  Forever Grateful or Forever Lost? Adopted Bipolar and Happy With my Dutch Family

  11 years ago

  How to feel when you're adopted? Forever lost or extremely grateful? Do we ever consider the basic feelings of the birthmother, leaving her child behind? Or do we only remember 'her' for having done the wrong thing?

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  Advice & Tips for Women in Relationships

  Embrace Your Ugliness. Aging Is a Gift!

  8 years ago

  How nakedness and self mockery could help you to start accepting your own beautiful self. Aging is a gift. How to accept it? That's the question.

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  Bipolar Disorders

  Sun, Ecstacy, Rain and Suicide: Bipolar Disorder and Seasonal Changes.

  8 years ago

  Do you know about the effects of seasonal changes on Bipolar Disorder? Why not move to a warmer climate and enjoy the wonders of sunlight and a stable life. It might be the best thing you ever did.

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  Spain

  Discover the Magic! Ibiza. Your Paradise on Earth!

  6 years ago

  How to get you addicted to the beautiful island Ibiza! Café del Mar, the best views, Pacha, San Antonio and many interesting facts.

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  Bipolar Disorders

  Sex, Drugs and Rock & Roll Mania. Bipolar Women and Hypersexuality.

  6 years ago

  Symptoms, consequences and treatment for Manic Hypersexuality. Next to Depression and the lack of sexual feelings.

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  Bipolar Disorders

  Bipolar Life and the Positive Effects of Self Knowledge.

  8 years ago

  Are you addicted to your maniacal highs? Do you know yourself well enough? Find out how Bipolar life can be an easy life after taking some meassures.

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  Bipolar Disorders

  Thank God, I Don't Have Children! Bipolar Disorder Made Me Choose Wisely.

  8 years ago

  Questions about pregnancy, Bipolar Disorder and every risk there is to take. Wise decisions can guarantee a life long stability. I chose the hard way but ended up to be stronger than ever before.

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  Bipolar Disorders

  Babies or Stability? Bipolar Women and Heartbreaking Choices.

  8 years ago

  Pregnancy and Bipolar Disorder. Questions to ask yourself and coping strategies to stay healthy and stable.

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  Bipolar Disorders

  Love to be Bipolar! From Isolation to Success.

  6 years ago

  Shame, suicide, therapy and success with Bipolar Disorder. About losing control and fighting your way back.