Awoken Again

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   Matthew Weeseposted 11 years ago

   It's three in the morning,
   
   I was startled awake,
   
   I had a glimpse of death,
   
   I awoke in cold sweats,
   
   shaking,
   
   heart pounding,
   
   soul shattering,
   
   nerve breaking,
   
   earth quaking.
   
   The snake's,
   
   the fangs,
   
   the hissing,
   
   the sound of demons screaming,
   
   the odor of napalm and burnt flesh,
   
   the sound of gunfire,
   
   the stench of the sand trench and decaying death,
   
   I'm home in bed and can't rest,
   
   it feels like my heart is gonna explode inside my chest,
   
   leave an internal mess,
   
   a war wound that cant be field dressed,
   
   the thought in my head is confess!!!!!!, confess!!!!!!, confess!!!!!!,
   
   I believe I failed the test.......the test of life,
   
   how do I stare my kids in the eye's when Satan's knocking on my door?
   
   kiss my wife?
   
   I walk through the day feeling cold,
   
   I've lived 32 years but feel 400 years old,
   
   a ticking time bomb of guilt,
   
   like I'm on a never ending tilt,
   
   ready to explode!!!!!
   
   the blood spilled stained the valley of peace inside my mind,
   
   crying, crying, crying.......all the confirmed lying!!!!!.
   
   
   Lord will these dreams ever cease,
   
   apparitions of the deceased haunt my sleep,
   
   orders, orders, all the orders that paved my road to hell,
   
   I was taught to lock, load, and kill!!!!!!
   
   on demand,
   
   understand!!!!!!.
   
   So..........
   
   I ask you please just let me sleep.

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   Cagsilposted 11 years ago

   You have approximately 2.5 hours before this expires and you will not be able to remove this.
   
   I would suggest making this into a hub, instead of wasting it on the forums.
   
   You've written 54 hubs and this might make 55, if you read this in time.
   
   You have the option to delete this, but before you do, I suggest you click on Start a new hub and then copy and paste this into a hub. Then delete this post, so when you publish the hub it doesn't come up as duplicate.
   
   Btw- Welcome to the Forums!

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   Matthew Weeseposted 11 years ago

   This is in my hubs, i accidentally hid it from the wall and do not know how to make it appear again....I'm trying to unhide it and just keep hitting blocks

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      Cagsilposted 11 years agoin reply to this

      If this is already in a hub, then why did you put it here? As for unhiding something on the Wall?
      
      Are you talking about the Feed? If so, then email staff about the problem you're having. I still suggest deleting the OP(opening post).

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         Matthew Weeseposted 11 years agoin reply to this

         i agree, i'm still learning all this, i been posting for a year and never really took the time to learn everything about it....it was my error. i truly appreciate the input.

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            Cagsilposted 11 years agoin reply to this

            Each post you make to the forums has a 3 hour duration(timer) attached. After that, you will not be able to do anything about the post. Which is why I said something. You should still be able to delete it.
            
            You're welcome.

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               Matthew Weeseposted 11 years agoin reply to this

               how do you un-hide a hub

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                  Cagsilposted 11 years agoin reply to this

                  You don't unhide a hub. You apparently unpublished the hub. A few minutes ago you had 55 hubs compared to having 54 now. It is not hidden. Go to your statistics page and you'll find it.

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