and I'm a nervous wreck! I go in at 2 this afternoon. I rarely even think about my multiple myeloma cells except when it's test time. At that point, my BP rises to 200/100, when it's normally 120/70 or lower. I've told the nurses that a stroke will kill me before the cancer does. lol
Habee my thoughts and prayers are with you today!
I'll be thinking of you. I usually feel confident that I've kicked the cancer, especially on days when I feel healthy and energetic, but going in for tests is STILL nerve-wracking!! Such a roller-coaster ride of fears, trying to talk yourself into thinking it will all be okay.
The upside, is when you do get results, and they're clean, it is SUCH a relief, and you feel even BETTER that you have confirmed that you are doing well!!
Best of Luck to You - I know exactly what you are going through!!!
Thank you, habee : )
It's been almost 6 years for me, and I had an aggressive cancer that should have recurred after a year or two - knowing that I've made it this far helps!!
But it doesn't stop the horrible sinking feeling you get anticipating tests...
I am praying for the positive result! You should also stay calm bec of your HB...
I do hopeit is a good result- no good trying to tell you to stay calm! Write a hub, or clean a cupboard- anything to take your mind off the test!
You are in our prayers. You are an inspiration with your writing and sharing your inner fears shows all of even the greatest writer faces steep mountains in life to climb.
You are very special to us. Focus positive thoughts of thankfulness, keep busy, and breath deeply. Deep breathing is a cleansing of the body and the mind. Breath in through the nose, exhale through the mouth, your exhale should be twice as long as your inhale.
When you go in there, think of how many people are thinking of you and saying a prayer for your well-being today!I'll say a prayer at 2:00 for all to go well.It's easy to see what a vibrant and wonderful person you are through your writing and you have touched many, including me! Try to let that thought make your load a little lighter.
Hoping for good news, Habee. Let us know if you get a chance...
Putting in a good word with the big guy for you, he never listens, but I’m sure his ears will perk up when I mention your name.
Sending lots of positive thoughts and healing energy your way Holle!
Thanks, pals! I've never regretted posting personal "stuff" here because fellow hubbers are always so supportive. Seriously, your comments, thoughts, and prayers made me feel better.
My "bad" numbers increased from 1100 to 1300, which is bad. Everything else, however, was normal, which is good! Now I can put this on the back burner for six more months. lol
Oh, how I wish my oncologist/hematologist could be my regular doctor - he's wonderful!
It means that I have multiple myeloma cells, but I don't have enough of them yet to be diagnosed with MM. Every time I get tested, the numbers are higher. This is pretty scary. My favorite aunt had MM and survived for only 10 months after being diagnosed.
The specific type of cells I have can cause neuropathy, but I already have neuropathy/nerve damage from spinal issues, so I don't know if my MM cells are contributing to that or not.
My bone marrow biopsy showed 5-10% plasma cells. An MM diagnosis is usually made at 10%. MM causes "holes" in the bones and extreme anemia. Thank goodness, I don't have either of these. My hemoglobin is high now, and my bone density is awesome. The surgeon doing my bone marrow biopsy told my hubby that he had to chisel like heck to get through my hip bone!
I was too late to wish you good luck but I'm glad almost everything turned out okay. Hope you continue to be all right Habee.
I have been thinking of you all day- so glad the results are not too bad
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