Yes, I have wondered. I have no idea where he is or what he does.
We dated exactly 2 years,(from age 16 to 18) and we planned to get married.
He broke up with me, and I was devastated.
At that time I was not a Christian, and I knew nothing about the peace of God.
We had so many arguments, and I regret, to this day, my negative and immature behavior, plus a lot of nasty words were spoken.
I have wanted, since then, to apologize, but I have no way to contact him.
About 2 months ago, it was in the newspaper his sister had died. I knew her well back then. I learned from the obituary he currently lived in Georgia, (it did not mention he had a spouse) and her visiting hours were a short drive from where I live.
I agonized all the next day about whether or not I should go to the funeral home to the visiting hours.
I discussed it with my husband, who knows everything about my past.
My husband is so wise! He said he was willing to drive me to the funeral home, if I wanted to go, see my former boy friend and apologize. He also added these words:
"I will take you there, but I will not go inside with you. However, I do not believe it is the right time or place for you to go there to talk about it."
That settled it. He was right. I went online, and I offered my condolences on his sister's obituary, signed my married and maiden name.
I believe in my heart that if God wants it, He will give me the opportunity to see my former boy friend and apologize to him - at the right time and place.
I pray to God every day that He will not take me into eternity without the opportunity to tie up any loose ends in my life. I trust completely God will not let me down.
Blessings, Sparklea :)