No need to be sorry. Actually, you ask a good question, and one that I was discussing with a Christian brother this morning. I believe that God has a purpose and a plan for every person. When we choose to put our lives in His hands, we must be ready to be re-made. For example, in my own life I have lived out many of the Scriptures regarding sacrifice. I didn't go looking for it, no one would. But in the sacrifices I have seen God's hand and the love of Jesus Christ. There is Scripture that speaks of separation of family, even within our own household. Is that a show stopper for you? Job? House? Money? I believe like with Abraham, God wants us to be happy. He must be first in our hearts, minds and souls. Working through what that means in our lives is challenging.
We have all heard the saying, "This ain't no dress rehearsal." I disagree. I believe that what we do hear in this life, and on this planet determines how we live eternally. The Scriptures do not speak of eternal death, they speak of eternal life. What I believe is determined here is what kind of eternal life we will have. Does that make sense?