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Higher than the Rooftop : The Haze...

Updated on January 11, 2010

Cloudy…misty…foggy…the haze was sickening.

Wish it should have rained instead. Well, maybe the rain could have soaked all up the ache I’ve been feeling. I knew this day would come…I mean, you could be smiling in the sunset, then you could be crying in the night.

I just never thought it could hurt like this. Yeah, it’s a part of fallin’, to take a fall…but with him, soaring…it was a crazy fall. Gently I fell…now, the hurt is cutting me inside gently, too. Crazier than a one big blow, breaking me little by little, pieces by pieces…it’s killing me.

It was a cloudy, starless night. I wasn’t in the mood and it was a pretty lame day so I thought of goin’ to the top to freshen up. Found him standing there wearing that vague face. I knew from that look there’s gonna be some thunder…I knew there’s gonna be a rainfall…and I knew I would gonna be sick.

But the rainfall never came Though lightning has struck after some thunder…breaking the link between us.

Cloudy…misty…foggy…the haze was sickening.

And so I am standing here, in this reserved rooftop…without him…

I don’t know if he’ll come back…

My heart never met his heart on the haze…

And so I am standing here, scared to death…

Scared the haze would blur him what I really wanna say…

It came over me in a rush
when I realized that I love you so much
that sometimes I cry
but I can’t tell you why
why I feel what I feel inside

how I try to express
what’s been troublin' my mind
but still I cant find the words
but I know that some things got a hold of me

baby someday I’ll find a way to say
just what you mean to me
but if that day never comes along
and you don’t hear this song
I guess you'll never know

It came over me in a rush
when I realized that I love you so much
that sometimes I cry
but I can’t tell you why
why I feel what I feel inside

and when I say inside I mean deep
you fill my soul
and that’s something I can’t explain
its over me

Cloudy…misty…foggy…the haze was sickening.

The damn haze…higher than the rooftop.

Higher than the Rooftop: Complete Series

1 Fallin'...

2 Missing...

3 Lost in the Rain...

4 The Guest...

5 Alone Together...

6 Your Silence...

7 The Kiss...

8 The Haze...

9 Fireworks...

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    • Nikkij504gurl profile image

      Nikki Wicked 

      8 years ago from Louisiana

      oh no. why he leaving? what happened? whats wrong? now this is more like what usually happens to me.

    • blaise25 profile imageAUTHOR

      Fehl Dungo 

      8 years ago from close to you...

      Thank you Cheeky Girl :) It means a lot. Mwah

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      Cassandra Mantis 

      8 years ago from UK and Nerujenia

      Even I had to check this out! It is sublime, Blaise. You are the real deal here, no doubt whatsoever! : ) xx

    • blaise25 profile imageAUTHOR

      Fehl Dungo 

      8 years ago from close to you...

      lalala I find myself liking reading this roofie series, too. Hot choco and home-made 'puto' in the morning rain, quite amazing than starbucks lol Thanks for being here becoz of it, I read my works, too ;) Cheers moi friend!

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      Cathy Nerujen 

      8 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space

      I am in deep, and I don't want this to stop. I am in poetry heaven here... :)

    • blaise25 profile imageAUTHOR

      Fehl Dungo 

      9 years ago from close to you...

      powerful words from you DH..THANKS A LOT! :) I didn't mean to draw pain though LOL

    • Dark Heart profile image

      Dark Heart 

      9 years ago

      Exquisitely painful."Cutting me inside gently."

    • blaise25 profile imageAUTHOR

      Fehl Dungo 

      9 years ago from close to you...

      thanks Millionheir!

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      9 years ago

      I can definitely relate...ah unrequited gotta love it! great work! Thank you for you pleasant fanmail 2:-)

    • blaise25 profile imageAUTHOR

      Fehl Dungo 

      9 years ago from close to you...

      I'd like to say thank you so much..til next time :)

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      9 years ago

      im all caught up now....cant wait for whats next...

    • blaise25 profile imageAUTHOR

      Fehl Dungo 

      9 years ago from close to you...

      I appreciate your comments and visits CM, thank you much! :)

    • carolina muscle profile image

      carolina muscle 

      9 years ago from Charlotte, North Carolina

      Very expressive and visual work!

    • blaise25 profile imageAUTHOR

      Fehl Dungo 

      9 years ago from close to you...


      Hello friend! I appreciate your usual visits. Ah sadness, it wont go away from my hubs LOL Thanks a lot! :)


      Thank you! Yah, hope you haven't missed a lot...:p I'll be on your journey, love your poems!


      thanks a lot for your warm compliments! TC

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      Karen Russell 

      9 years ago


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      9 years ago

      This is cool... seems like lots of things happen on your rooftop! I shall await the next chapter :)

    • Micky Dee profile image

      Micky Dee 

      9 years ago

      Very nice. Representing life again. I'm a little sad for you but you know it's life too. Thanks

    • blaise25 profile imageAUTHOR

      Fehl Dungo 

      9 years ago from close to you...

      Hello there my favorite poets, Invictus and Poet! :)


      It’s a song (In a Rush, from Blackstreet) and yah, I’ve put it I said it was all I really wanted to say..

      I agree, sometimes we need a little “Greta Garbo” time.

      Fear, yup it invades any moment but I must say I fear of nothing right about now…I mean, the haze was just a phase… :) Bubble on acid? They are beautiful but fleeting..I go crazy for your words at times :) In a good way lol

      Thanks a lot! This isn’t the finale yet, 2 more I guess.. ;p


      :) It’s not..thank you so much for being here…you will be on the finale ;p

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      9 years ago

      please don't make this the finale please,,,,,,,,,,

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      9 years ago

      Yikes, it sounds so tragic...was the last poem meant to be part of this..I'm a bit confused..

      I will say, it's a tough position that the rooftop became a santuary for both..I feel a person, or maybe it's just me needs their "Greta Garbo" time..peace and solitude to clear their that beautiful things are not stifled..

      I just don't know why love becomes so tragic...maybe fear. I feel, I could relate to this better when I was younger and not as understanding of my own identity. Though, I will agree that it can be uneasy to communicate when your heart is fluttering wildly, like a bubble on acid!

      Thanks, blaise! I look forward to the finale (unless this is it) :)


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