At this point in my life, I'd have to say, "Sorry, God. I let you down. I have not yet followed Christ as I should have, so I don't deserve heaven."
That's why I strive every day to examine myself, to caution myself, to subdue my ego until it is gone.
This is the spiritual me learning to walk. It's baby stuff, but it still seems so difficult. Perhaps that's why Christ called it the "narrow path."
I know that mouthing the words, "I accept Christ," is not good enough. I know that "feeling it deeply" is not good enough. I know that only by doing what Christ taught can we truly be following him, otherwise we are following the master of this world -- ego.
I hope and pray that we all make it.