Poem: Feeling Lost & Alone By Brenda

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   surovi99posted 2 years ago

   Brenda has written a touching poem. Read it from the following link:
   https://hubpages.com/literature/Poem-Feeling-Lost-Alone
   
   Hi Brenda,
   I really feel for you. You must be missing Ron. God always brings about opportunities. Keep having faith in Him and trusting Him. Rely on Him for guidance. I will be so glad to have things fallen together for you. May you sleep well and have a good night.

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      Brenda Arledgeposted 2 years agoin reply to this

      Thanks for sharing this one Rosina.
      
      I'm fine.  No doubt I miss life as I knew it, but as I travel forward it sometimes seems like I am only going through the motions.
      
      Nothing will ever fit quite like it did...but that's life.
      
      Take care

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      Brenda Arledgeposted 2 years agoin reply to this

      Rosina...
      I absolutely do miss Ron on alot of days, but I also think I've felt like I've been from misfit land alot of times in my life.
      
      I tend to be my own person with my own unique life.
      One of a kind and set in my ways.

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         surovi99posted 2 years agoin reply to this

         I thought so, Brenda. It's hard to get over the loss of a loved one. You are special and loved by HP community. Take some solace in that. Step by step, you will get where you want to be and what you want from life. You got the grant. What are you doing about it? I guess something awesome. Do share.

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            Brenda Arledgeposted 2 years agoin reply to this

            Rosina....
            I haven't actually done anything yet with the grant.
            I've written thank you letters to our Governor and a few others for supporting this program.
            
            I'm wanting to purchase a handheld video camera to do spoken word poetry, but i can't decide on which one would work best.
            
            I'm thinking 4 mp format at least.
            
            Anyone have any ideas?

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            Brenda Arledgeposted 2 years agoin reply to this

            I'll let you know...how it goes.
            So far. I'm taking bany steps

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   Pamela99posted 2 years ago

   I think you are right, Rosina. This is a heartfelt poem about loss. It is very touching, Brenda. I pray for you as you have been through so much recently with the loss of Ron, and with your health problems. We may not communicate all the time, but I think of very frequently.
   
   Thank you for posting Brenda's poem, Rosina.

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      Brenda Arledgeposted 2 years agoin reply to this

      Thanks Pamela.   
      I think about you alot and hope your health issues are better.
      
      I won't lie and say this is easy...because it's not.
      
      I talk to many people and attempt to fit in when I'm out of the house, but my heart doesn't want to be there.
      
      Like tonight, I'm supposed to watch Ohio State game with a crowd...while I'm used to staying home to watch the game in the comfort of our home....it will be different if I go...and I won't quite fit in.

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   Jodahposted 2 years ago

   A  touching poem, Brenda, and totally understandable due to what you have been through. First dealing with Ron's illness, then his passing, only to be left alone with your own health problems. I hope all things start to improve for you, you deserve it.
   Thanks for sharing, Rosina.

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      Brenda Arledgeposted 2 years agoin reply to this

      John...
      No doubt the path hasn't been easy.
      I guess even the best laid pland have detours and bumps.
      But i don't think we ever thought about after his passing...or maybe I just didn't.
      It's definitely different trying to do things in a new manner when your heart really doesn't want too.

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   Misbah786posted 2 years ago

   Dear Bredz, I know loss hurts like hell, and it’s something that all of us experience at some point in our lives. . Only God has the power, and remember that even when no one is listening, He is still present and will always be. I understand your pain, my friend. I pray that God bless you with everything beautiful, good health, and prosperity.
   
   Ron will never be happy to see you lost and sad. Please know that you are not alone; you always have me by your side. Although no words can really help to ease your loss, but alway remember that you are in my thoughts. I cannot take away your pain, but I can listen if you’d like to talk about it.
   
   I know my words are inadequate, but I am truly sorry for what you’re experiencing. Please know I am always here for you. Write to me whenever you want, about whatever you want; I promise to listen. Wishing you peace and strength.
   Take care, my friend. God bless you always! Much love.
   Sending warm hugs!
   
   Thank you so much for sharing, Rosina!

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      Brenda Arledgeposted 2 years agoin reply to this

      Awe...
      Thank you so much Misbah.
      
      I really appreciate your kindness.
      
      I'll be okay.  Shed a few tears and then pick myself up and venture onward in life.
      I get that God walks with me, though I argue with him once in awhile.
      I can't change anything...just accept each moment.
      
      At least my writing is one place I fit in...everyone here really helps.
      
      Take care.  Keep writing and stop worrying about me.
      I'll be fine...as long as my health stays okay.
      
      Talk with you soon.

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         Misbah786posted 2 years agoin reply to this

         {{{Hugs}}}

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            Brenda Arledgeposted 2 years agoin reply to this

            Thank you gal...
            Hugs right back

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            Brenda Arledgeposted 2 years agoin reply to this

            [[[ Hugs!  ]]]
            
            I MADE it through the Ohio State game.
            
            Although I wasn't happy with the sound system and left the one place and went somewhere else to finish watching it.
            Needless to say...
            I think I'll watch this game at Home next week.
            
            Even if I am alone...I'll be able to hear and see the game.
            
            These little hurdles will eventually get better...but I didn't fit in.

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               Misbah786posted 2 years agoin reply to this

               Just be yourself, Bredz. And remember, life is only granted once...
               
               You’ll learn, as you get older, that rules are made to be broken. Be bold enough to live life on your terms, and never, ever apologize for it. Go against the grain, refuse to conform, take the road less traveled instead of the well-beaten path. Laugh in the face of adversity, and leap before you look. Dance as though EVERYBODY is watching. March to the beat of your own drummer. And stubbornly refuse to fit in.
               
               —Mandy Hale, The Single Woman: Life, Love, and a Dash of Sass
               
               
               
               Blessings and Peace!!

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                  Brenda Arledgeposted 2 years agoin reply to this

                  I love that!  Stubbornly refuse to fit in...that's a good one.
                  
                  I think I'll beat to the tune of my own drummer.
                  
                  Cause it's not working the other way.

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                     Misbah786posted 2 years agoin reply to this

                     Be happy!

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                  Brenda Arledgeposted 2 years agoin reply to this

                  Misbah...
                  Going against the grain & being your own person....bold enough to live on your own terms...
                  
                  These are powerful words my friend.
                  
                  Great inspiration

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                     Misbah786posted 2 years agoin reply to this

                     Bredz, you are more powerful than anything that may come your way. You are a lioness, my friend. Roar!
                     
                     Hugs and kisses!

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                        Brenda Arledgeposted 2 years agoin reply to this

                        Misbah...
                        You make even a sad day seem better.
                        
                        Thank you for being you.
                        
                        Hugs
                        Bredz

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   ravirajan01posted 2 years ago

   Yes, Brenda. It hurts a lot when we lose someone dear and no words however soothing can mitigate the loss. However, time is the greatest healer and leveler of all, With time, we all find new paths in life. Stay strong and be brave. This too will pass.
   
   Thanks, Rosina for sharing.

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      Brenda Arledgeposted 2 years agoin reply to this

      Thanks Ravi...
      Time is a great healer perhaps...or maybe we just get better at hiding how we feel.
      
      Those new paths are the reason I feel this way.
      
      I'm sure eventually I will stumble on the right one...but I'd rather just sit at home.
      
      There are no words.   Just time.

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      Brenda Arledgeposted 2 years agoin reply to this

      Ravi..
      I'll eventually get there.
      It's just that right now.. no matter what I try to do...
      I don't really feel like I fit in.

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   vidsagsterposted 2 years ago

   Hi Brenda, a touching heartfelt poem. It is difficult to deal with loss. Healing takes time. Your writing is your solace. Keep writing, take care. Thanks Rosina for sharing.

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      Brenda Arledgeposted 2 years agoin reply to this

      Hi Vidya...
      My writing definitely helps. 
      So do the writers here at Hubpages.
      
      This one does come from the heart.  I've tried getting out of the house and socializing with others, but quite honestly nothing clicks.
      
      I hope you are doing okay...I haven't seen you for awhile, but then again I haven't been on here alot yet.

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      Brenda Arledgeposted 2 years agoin reply to this

      Thanks Vidya. 
      That path just got a bit longer.
      
      I wish Ron were here.

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   ravirajan01posted 2 years ago

   Sure Brenda.Try to take one baby step at a time.I am sure you will win.

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      Brenda Arledgeposted 2 years agoin reply to this

      Thank you Ravi...baby steps seem to be my pace.

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   ChitrangadaSharanposted 2 years ago

   Hi Brenda!
   Your few words are enough to understand your pain! I feel sorry for you and just wish that something could be done to ease your emotional suffering!
   It's easier to say that stay strong and things like that, but I do understand that it's not easy at all to deal with the loss of a loved one!
   I wish you peace of mind and my best wishes to you!
   Take care!
   Thank you for sharing this Rosina!

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      Brenda Arledgeposted 2 years agoin reply to this

      Thank you so much Chitrangada.
      
      It's not an easy road, but each moment brings me closer.
      
      It's just a bit difficult to try to do things I'm not used to doing.
      
      Guess I'm a bit stubborn.

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      Brenda Arledgeposted 2 years agoin reply to this

      Chitrangada...
      I just have to be thankful for the things I do have...and stop focusing so much on what I no longer have in my life.
      Be that as it may....one never stops carrying a loved one in his heart.

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   jansharesposted 2 years ago

   Poignant poem, Brenda. You've shared a level of loss and loneliness that is felt at the core. You've expressed, through your experiences, a level of vulnerability which is relatable to many, especially after the worse parts of the pandemic. You touch a lot of people with your poetry who may need validation and healing through your words. It also helps you to heal by sharing. Thank you, Rosina, for sharing Brenda's poem.

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      Brenda Arledgeposted 2 years agoin reply to this

      Thank you so much Jan.
      
      I truly hope my words can help others.
      
      It does indeed help me...even through those tears.

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    vidsagsterposted 2 years ago

    A very heartfelt poem Brenda. I hope and pray that everything goes well for you soon. Writing can be a great healer. Your poetry is a solace for you and inspiration for us. Keep writing, stay blessed.

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       Brenda Arledgeposted 2 years agoin reply to this

       Vidya...
       It's sweet of you to say my writing is an inspiration.
       
       I know it helps me to jot down my thoughts as I go about my day.
       Sometimes I turn those thoughts into poetry.
       
       I do believe writing helps us heal.
       
       Take care

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    manatita44posted 2 years ago

    Grief helps us, and again, we're never alone. The departed soul will eventually arrive on the Elysian lap of the Absolute. Grieving is for us as we 're still in the process of growing. What we miss is our true nature -- our oneness in God.
    
    Attachments are a part of the process, but we gradually learn to transcend. The next human is as weak as we are, so how can they grant us the Light immortal? The God-man can, but even Him/Her, do not break the order. The soul is only satisfied by learning through experiences, in order to return Home. All my Love, Brenda.

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       Brenda Arledgeposted 2 years agoin reply to this

       Manatita,
       It's great to see you stopping by and sending me a bit of your kind wisdom.
       Tis true that as humans we are weak and the only one who can show me the way is our father in heaven...but he wants me to grow and learn along this journey of life.
       Your words make sense.
       
       I wonder though if I feel like a misfit because nothing here is like our home in heaven.
       
       Have a successful night tonight! 
       I might try to tune in at half time.

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       Brenda Arledgeposted 2 years agoin reply to this

       I miss you.
       Yòur words always mean alot

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    AliciaCposted 2 years ago

    Brenda has written a great poem about loss and the feeling that we don’t belong. I hope the future is better for you, Brenda. Best wishes to you.

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       Brenda Arledgeposted 2 years agoin reply to this

       Thank you so much Linda.
       
       I truly hope one has to experience this

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       Brenda Arledgeposted 2 years agoin reply to this

       Thanks Linda. 
       The future is written...I need to accept it...and keep living my life

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    Brenda Arledgeposted 2 years ago

    Val...
    This one sums a part of it up

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