Crikey - run a few errands and look what happens... Thanks Daniel - for standing in as the voice of reason in my absence. Doubt is indeed a decision or more appropriately, normally a subconscious 'automatic' decision. Those subconscious ones are based on the programs that run our lives; the ones we adopted as children when we thought our parents were Gods. Without getting in touch with those, change is futile. Bravo again Daniel on sharing the difference between questioning to find ones way and doubt.
Pretty sure that's why there are so many jumping on you in disbelief Derek. I didn't get that you questioned to find out before - nor frankly that you were questioning because of a program in your DNA or subconscious. You came across (and still do) as if there is no logic to belief, faith, or the path we choose to follow. Hogwash! I have yet to believe ANYTHING without solid proof or verification of it's reality. Does that mean there is a reason for everything the disciples wrote in the bible? Absolutely! Noah's ark isn't there because God loves animals. Considering one level of that story, every moment of our lives ought to be better, more loving, giving, less judgemental and tranquil when we study how everything applies to this moment. i.e. two of every animal got along just fine in a tiny boat for 40 days - and you can't get along with your brother? Or sister? Or anyone for that matter?
Now that you have found Jesus, many have shared that it's about the actions you are guided to improve. And not for some silly afterlife belief, but rather for today and each moment you live. Karma is cause and effect - true belief and "being saved" may have you on your knees in a heartbeat - weeping with the realization of how many you've dissed, how many people you've hurt, damaged or scorn because of a shallow belief in materialism and merely what concerns us here on earth. Jesus said he is the way, the truth and the light - that is the path, that becomes the goal. It is not words, not a trophy, not a ticket to continue dissing those who are still lost but rather a burden of responsibility yet we come to truly believe, "He ain't heavy, he's my brother!"
OK hey, clearly, I could go on but I shan't. Bottom line - study and learn about your new path Derek - it is AWESOME and you will become a more logical, better man with each passing day. Faith is the guide, logic is the key to discernment - and as I said before, love is always the answer!