lifesparadox

“All I want to do is write for all to see.” That statement has run through my heart from as far back as life has let me remember. I’ve always been able to write my feelings down on paper much easier than I can voice them. The words I feel seem to just flow from my hand.

I am a thirty eight year old single mother of two and a full time Compliance Officer/Pharmacy Technician. My passion for writing stems from what some may refer to as heartaches and obstacles. I however, look at these times as challenging my opportunities for personal growth. Once in a while I just feel alone. The words that appear on my paper are comforting. In a strange way every completed sentence is like a companion to my soul.

It’s hard for me to gather enough information from my mind to tell someone about myself. I’m still trying to find me and vow to master that skill. When I feel a power struggle within, from something or someone that is important to me, I can write anytime or anywhere. My downfall is the difficulty of summing it all up to an end.

I believe my strongest abilities within writing are self diagnostic quotes and poetry. Most of the time they tend to be very deep and quite long. The healing power of writing straight from my heart gives me a sense of self and pride. These are my ways of dealing with blocked field goals. Interstates with no exit signs along my way force me to discover who I am and every reason I am here.

I hope many of you will enjoy reading my hubs. I look forward to meeting new people, making new friends and learning something from each and every one of you. Join me as I fulfill what is still my childhood dream and finally open up to the world.

© COPYRIGHT March 2012 by lifesparadox

In the Spotlight

You Don't Know Me

Do we ever truly know anyone? I don't even know me so how could I expect someone else to? When we start to get to know someone and learn all of their faults, their past and their ways, do we become more attached? Will it push us away? Although I'd like to get to know myself, I'm still not sure whether or not I want anyone else to know me. Or do I?

In the Spotlight

I Will Find Me~Poem

Reclaiming scattered pieces of my heart and mending segments back together is quite tiring. When the moment comes, how do I find me?

In the Spotlight

My Mom, My Blessing~A Mother's Day Poem

I wrote this for my mommy/mom/mother/angel/best friend. My mom is such a blessing in my life. She raised me to be caring and strong. Through her I learned how to be a daughter, friend, sister, cousin, aunt, wife, divorced woman and a mother.

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  Poems & Poetry

  My Special Escape~ A Poem

  11 years ago

  Have you ever wanted something so badly you would give up most everything just to get it? You could possibly make the right decision or it could end up being the biggest mistake ever. You may end up finding what you have been longing for but still not be able to make it all that you wanted. We...

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  Poems & Poetry

  Unaided In Gloom~Poem

  11 years ago

  It's hard to reach when there’s nothing in sight.

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  Mental Health Self-Help

  Here to Learn 101

  11 years ago

  This is life and while I am able to be a part of it I will continue my mission. Confusing yes, impossible no, for we are never given more than we can handle. There are no permanent solutions because there are so many different temporary problems.

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  14
  Poems & Poetry

  My Mom, My Blessing~A Mother's Day Poem

  11 years ago

  I wrote this for my mommy/mom/mother/angel/best friend. My mom is such a blessing in my life. She raised me to be caring and strong. Through her I learned how to be a daughter, friend, sister, cousin, aunt, wife, divorced woman and a mother.

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  30
  Poems & Poetry

  I Will Find Me~Poem

  7 years ago

  Reclaiming scattered pieces of my heart and mending segments back together is quite tiring. When the moment comes, how do I find me?

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  Books, Literature, and Writing

  Holding On To Tomorrow~A poem

  11 years ago

  Looking up from this shadow It lays grounded on black Slashing through to the chain of my core

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  Poems & Poetry

  You Don't Know Me

  7 years ago

  Do we ever truly know anyone? I don't even know me so how could I expect someone else to? When we start to get to know someone and learn all of their faults, their past and their ways, do we become more attached? Will it push us away? Although I'd like to get to know myself, I'm still not sure...

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  Poems & Poetry

  Love Is Complex~Afterthoughts from the Mystified Affection Poem by lifesparadox

  11 years ago

  I think that if we don’t know who we are and learn to accept and love ourselves than it’s seemingly impossible to not only feel a complete love for another but also be capable of giving it to them.

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  Poems & Poetry

  Mystified Affection~Poem

  11 years ago

  We can’t help who we fall for or why we sink so deep. It’s a constant struggle when a few small steps turn into a giant leap.

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  4
  Poems & Poetry

  Weapon of Affliction~Poem

  11 years ago

  Internal wounds may never heal kenfotos / FreeDigitalPhotos.net I don't need a little dab smeared of rouge. The darkest of foundation cannot cover the bruise. Powerless tears, my eyes no longer care, Looking up I bestow a dreadful blank...

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  Poems & Poetry

  Heavenly Exchange~Poem

  11 years ago

  Drkijewel-Wikimedia Commons Little flutters felt from within, Essence of Inner peace. Surrounded with tranquility, Butterflies dwell. The truest love, One you’ll soon meet. Admiration of vast comfort, Now two souls’...

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  Personal Development

  Everyday Questions

  11 years ago

  Suddenly it picks you up and takes you into a dark funnel of an unstable and careless wrath of destruction. The storm begins to be unpredictable as you lose sight of everything on the outside. Can you be audacious and question its ability to last forever?

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  Poems & Poetry

  odds and ends~poetry from lifesparadox

  11 years ago

  Will the tears ever stop falling, do you get lost in the pain? Can the mind ever be at ease, or is this an evil game? Confusion takes hold and its power trip is strong. You can ask the heart to grow colder. Has it been frozen all along? The...