Been a long road...

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  1. paradigmsearch profile image86
    paradigmsearchposted 21 months ago

    AMD has hit the point where I am soon not going to play here anymore. I realize that this is a sigh of relief for many. It was fun. And I did make it to 68 years old. Yes, I am familiar with ctrl+. @HP You were a true godsend these last 8 years. Not only the money, but the friendship and camaraderie of the last 6-7 years; they are "all" new people and strangers now. This is not a sign-off, I don't know when that will be.

    1. Victoria Lynn profile image88
      Victoria Lynnposted 21 months agoin reply to this

      Wow, paradigmsearch, 8 years! I've been here nearly 7, and I think I've followed you most or all of my time here. I haven't written anything here in about four years, but I still check in now and then to see any comments, read a few hubs, and check my stats. I still get payout every month or every other month, so that's cool. I don't see any reason to totally leave, and I may even write again at some point. Do you see a reason to sign off permanently? I hope you decide to pop in now and then even if you are away more than usual. :-)

      1. makingamark profile image72
        makingamarkposted 21 months agoin reply to this

        When paradigmsearch references AMD, I think she is referring to age-related macular degeneration - as in significant eyesight deterioration.

        As in not "checking out" or "leaving in a huff" wink
        just unable to continue to view a computer screen in a meaningful way.

        Am I right?

        1. paradigmsearch profile image86
          paradigmsearchposted 21 months agoin reply to this

          I read your post several times to make sure. "just unable to continue to view a computer screen in a meaningful way." is true.

          We can't import as before, so shall do so here.

          Victoria Lynn, thank you.

          Butterfly, it's been going on for a decade. It's finally hit.

          makingamark. Am giving you the benefit of the doubt.

          1. makingamark profile image72
            makingamarkposted 21 months agoin reply to this

            What on earth do I need the benefit of the doubt for?
            Last time I try interpreting other people's extremely opaque posts to avoid misunderstandings by others in future.

            The way you phrased it could have been interpreted that you had a terminal illness for goodness sake!!!

            All you needed to say is "I am going blind and I don't know how much longer I'll be able to continue on Hubpages - but it's going to be sooner rather than later"

            1. paradigmsearch profile image86
              paradigmsearchposted 21 months agoin reply to this

              Deleted

          2. Victoria Lynn profile image88
            Victoria Lynnposted 21 months agoin reply to this

            OH! I didn't know what AMD was! Sorry I missed that! That makes total sense now. :-)

            1. paradigmsearch profile image86
              paradigmsearchposted 21 months agoin reply to this

              You are right. I should have said "blind". Serious. Only those of the last would have known; I've got to get quit living in the past.

      2. Christy Kirwan profile image96
        Christy Kirwanposted 21 months agoin reply to this

        Very sorry to hear that you are unwell. Hopefully you'll be able to find a reading/dictation app you like to help you stay active online. Either way it will be a huge adjustment. Wishing you the best.

        1. paradigmsearch profile image86
          paradigmsearchposted 21 months agoin reply to this

          Thank you very much for responding.

      3. Randy Godwin profile image92
        Randy Godwinposted 21 months agoin reply to this

        Dammit Para, you haven't told me that! I knew you had vision problems, as I have, but you didn't tell me you were having problems this bad. mad

        1. paradigmsearch profile image86
          paradigmsearchposted 21 months agoin reply to this

          Spots, everything has gone to hell. True crap.

          1. Randy Godwin profile image92
            Randy Godwinposted 21 months agoin reply to this

            I'm now depressed...

            1. paradigmsearch profile image86
              paradigmsearchposted 21 months agoin reply to this

              Thank you, how to vicious turn this around?

      4. liesl5858 profile image87
        liesl5858posted 21 months agoin reply to this

        Paradigmsearch, I am sorry to hear you got AMD. It can be frustrating sometimes for people with AMD condition but I hope with all the new inventions, the doctors or opticians can do something to help you. I work with the blind people and everyday I can see their difficulties but I know you are a strong person and you can overcome this.

      5. GwennyOh profile image86
        GwennyOhposted 21 months agoin reply to this

        I am truly sorry to hear that this is how it is for you. I hope that your future projects are in line with your drathers and desires.

      6. TIMETRAVELER2 profile image98
        TIMETRAVELER2posted 21 months agoin reply to this

        I've been in touch with Marisa Wright.  She wanted me to tell you that she feels terrible about your situation and wishes you well in the future.

    2. Butterfly67 profile image91
      Butterfly67posted 21 months ago

      I had to Google AMD, sorry to hear that, hope it does not get too bad for you.

    3. paradigmsearch profile image86
      paradigmsearchposted 21 months ago

      I am male.

    4. paradigmsearch profile image86
      paradigmsearchposted 21 months ago

      Three needle-in-the-eye shots. Mark has made me defensive. HP does not allow me to do combat.

      1. DzyMsLizzy profile image94
        DzyMsLizzyposted 21 months agoin reply to this

        OWWWWWCCCHHHHIIIEEEEE!!!!!!!!

    5. paradigmsearch profile image86
      paradigmsearchposted 21 months ago

      A rant. Seen the daily news. What has happened is not fairly serious in the scheme of things. But seriously, got to finally reaching blindness is a serious thing.

      1. Patty Inglish, MS profile image92
        Patty Inglish, MSposted 21 months agoin reply to this

        I am sorry to know your sight loss has worsened and I will miss you if you leave HP. You probably don't want to hear about new treatments for AMD in the pipeline - All that does not help you right now and we'll all be 140 years old maybe when they are perfected. Anyway, take care and you'll be missed.

        1. paradigmsearch profile image86
          paradigmsearchposted 21 months agoin reply to this

          Yes.

          1. Barbara Kay profile image84
            Barbara Kayposted 21 months agoin reply to this

            I am sorry to hear that paradigmsearch. One of my  sisters has it. We'll miss you terribly. I've been here for 8 years and I know you have been around all this time.

    6. paradigmsearch profile image86
      paradigmsearchposted 21 months ago

      Dreams are not reality.

      1. Kathryn L Hill profile image79
        Kathryn L Hillposted 21 months agoin reply to this

        - who can resist ...

        1. Kathryn L Hill profile image79
          Kathryn L Hillposted 21 months agoin reply to this

          reality?

    7. Kenna McHugh profile image91
      Kenna McHughposted 21 months ago

      You are in my positive thoughts. I love your replies to my Quote of the Day. I am sure there is a way to stay active online. I am hoping for the best!

    8. paradigmsearch profile image86
      paradigmsearchposted 21 months ago

      Fu marky. I am banned. Why aren't you?

    9. paradigmsearch profile image86
      paradigmsearchposted 21 months ago

      Tangle foot, I still see, denial, blowing in the wind, spots, amd, I can see this, but not see this, can you imagine this, do you imagine this, can you imagine the punctuation, can you imagine, the brain, being allowed sight, and being denied, and being slowly taken away from you, and finally being done.

      1. Victoria Lynn profile image88
        Victoria Lynnposted 21 months agoin reply to this

        I am so sorry. That sounds like an awful thing to deal with. Words can't express . . . .

        1. paradigmsearch profile image86
          paradigmsearchposted 21 months agoin reply to this

          Thank you. I am just dealing and playing and quieting with it. (spellchecker)

    10. paradigmsearch profile image86
      paradigmsearchposted 21 months ago

      Trite omg, hp forums a mess

    11. paradigmsearch profile image86
      paradigmsearchposted 21 months ago

      @HP Male. Are you serious you did not know that?

    12. paradigmsearch profile image86
      paradigmsearchposted 21 months ago

      War as am blind. It's what I do. Am I allowed?

    13. janshares profile image95
      jansharesposted 21 months ago

      You know you're one of my favorites, right? Hate to hear you going through this, para. Ugh! You are a part of the crew that made this place fun when I came on almost 6 years ago. I hope you're able to hang around for a little while longer. hmm Peace and blessings.

      1. paradigmsearch profile image86
        paradigmsearchposted 21 months agoin reply to this

        Agreed. What does one do?

    14. CMHypno profile image94
      CMHypnoposted 21 months ago

      Forums won't be the same without you Para!  Not been around much lately, but you are one of the constants in this place.  My thoughts and prayers are with you.

    15. FatFreddysCat profile image96
      FatFreddysCatposted 21 months ago

      Sorry to hear of your troubles, para. You have raised the bar high when it comes to forum surrealism for us all, and for that I salute thee.

    16. lobobrandon profile image88
      lobobrandonposted 21 months ago

      You will be missed PD. You're definitely one of my favourite people here. Every time you were banned I waited patiently until the ban was lifted haha. I'm on vacation right now but I'm glad I checked in. I hope you read this. Good luck and I wish you the best.

    17. Susana S profile image96
      Susana Sposted 21 months ago

      Sorry to hear this PD. You are part of this place!
      Are there no accessibility options that would enable you to stay?

    18. paradigmsearch profile image86
      paradigmsearchposted 21 months ago

      Thank you, everyone, for your replies. For the record; this is not a self-pity party, it is a rant-at-reality party. Where I live, pretty much everyone is fckd: wheel chairs, urine bag strapped to leg, fear for safety, etc. As for blindness, the only thing worse is unremitting pain, leastwise I don't have that. What I am typing here is full of white spots, so probably full of inaccuracies; but red-line underneath helps a lot. I reiterate my feelings for HP: guys, you have no idea how much you have contributed to society; my guess is you have helped more people than you will ever know.

      1. lobobrandon profile image88
        lobobrandonposted 21 months agoin reply to this

        The last sentence smile

      2. janshares profile image95
        jansharesposted 21 months agoin reply to this

        smile

    19. paradigmsearch profile image86
      paradigmsearchposted 21 months ago

      Am still able to do at ctrl+5-6. Odd how I still need social contact, some/most just wrap up in a ball.

      1. Peggy W profile image96
        Peggy Wposted 21 months agoin reply to this

        We all need social contacts and it is amazing how we get to feel connected with people on this site over time.  I am truly sorry to hear about your vision problems.  You would be missed on this site by many people.

    20. Dolores Monet profile image95
      Dolores Monetposted 21 months ago

      I am sorry to hear that you are going through this, that you are being so robbed. Many of us, as we age, find that life does not deal us a fair hand. I hope that you find something new, a new way to express yourself. Though we have not really chatted, I have often read your posts. I can't see you just disappearing into the void. I hope you use your voice to insite and inspire. I hope you hear new music and birdsong. I hope that suffering strengthens your soul and that your creativity and panache help you find a new path.

    21. AliciaC profile image97
      AliciaCposted 21 months ago

      I’m sorry about your sight problems. I hope you find some accessibility options that enable you to continue using a computer. You would be missed very much if you left.

    22. LongTimeMother profile image93
      LongTimeMotherposted 21 months ago

      Hi Para. I don't know if I can help you or not, but I'll give it a try. I was forced to wear glasses since my 40s. Eyesight was so crap I couldn't even read street signs without them, or the big letters saying 'shampoo' or 'conditioner' when taking a shower. Wore very expensive glasses with 'graduating' lenses to help me see both close and far away.

      As you know, I'm a nutty old woman who grows and uses medicinal herbs. Long story short, I've had no need for glasses for the past six years. I can read fine print in our phone book and successfully play Angry Birds on my phone without specs. My eyesight is better than it has ever been.

      Will the same herbs help for AMD? I don't know. But I sure reckon they're worth a try. So here's what I suggest. You email me your street address and I'll source the herbs on your side of the world and have them sent to you. If I can't find them in the US, I'll arrange to have some seeds sent to you from Australia. I know a woman with a license to export them overseas. (I don't have a license, so I can't post you them from my garden, sadly.)

      If you get the seeds, you'll have to grow the plants. But hopefully I can find the actual plants in your part of the world and have them delivered.

      So ... if you're prepared to try using them, I'll do my best to get them to you. No guarantees they'll work for you, but I'm thinking it is a much better idea than doing nothing.  We need to keep you active on HP!!

      LTM

      1. theraggededge profile image97
        theraggededgeposted 21 months agoin reply to this

        That sounds fascinating. My eyesight's getting bad, can you give us more information, or can I contact you? I'm in the UK and can source the seeds/plant myself.

        1. LongTimeMother profile image93
          LongTimeMotherposted 21 months agoin reply to this

          Sure. Contact me via email and I'll put some notes together. smile

     
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