I'm really going to miss you Dad.

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   Candie Vposted 15 years ago

   Ah.. My heart hurts for you!!  I'm so sorry, and hope all the hugs in here can help you know how much we all care.  You are special to many of us!

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   Susana Sposted 15 years ago

   Lyricsyngray - what a hard life challenge to have to go through. I'm sorry to hear that your Dad found life so painful he felt he had to go. Love to you and my deepest respects...

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   AEvansposted 15 years ago

   Oh Lyric, I am so sorry and will pray for you ((Big Hugs))

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   I*n*v*i*c*t*u*sposted 15 years ago

   My thoughts and prayers are with you, Kimberely! So, very sorry to hear of you father.. {hugs}

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   lyricsingrayposted 15 years ago

   I really don't know how to thank you all except to tell you, and believe me, you have all made me feel so much less alone.  I can never thank you enough.   Ever.

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   tantrumposted 15 years ago

   I'm here for you if you need me !
   How are you ?

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   sneakorocksolidposted 15 years ago

   Dearest Lyrics, I'm so sad to here of your loss. I wish I had an answer that would ease your loss. If I can help please ask. Rick.

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   cosetteposted 15 years ago

   
   
   i'm so sorry Kimberly. my thoughts are with you and your family.
   
   sending you some hugs

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   Rochelle Frankposted 15 years ago

   It's so hard to lose your Dad in any circumstance. I know this must be almost too painful to bear. He must have been in great pain. I hope you will find some comfort.

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    lyricsingrayposted 15 years ago

    Tantrum, thanks and I am focusing on remembering my dad had the best sense of humor of anyone I know.  He would  always tease me at my hubscore being low and I should be at 100 already.  This of course for the past 4 months. 
    
    So in honor of his teasing, I have printed off my profile page, marketed in 100 score and  think that will be my contribution to his coffin.  The funeral home will put it in for me.  It makes me laugh and in some weird way I know he is too.

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       tantrumposted 15 years agoin reply to this

       that's great! My father had a lot of sense of humour as well.
       it's better to remember the good days and the laughs. that remains forever !

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       Mishaposted 15 years agoin reply to this

       I know he appreciates it

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       caravalhophotoposted 15 years agoin reply to this

       That is totally awesome Lyrics...a wonderful way to honor a fond memory and his sense of humor...Blessings

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    prettydarkhorseposted 15 years ago

    lyrics, take care of yourself too,

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    waynetposted 15 years ago

    I'm sorry to hear this mrs, take care of yourself and remember the funny times always with your Dad...big hug from this ginger hubber!!

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    goldenpathposted 15 years ago

    Do everything you can to allow yourself the grieving process.  There shall be no personal cleansing of the distress until it happens.  My well wishes and sincere prayers are with you and your family members affected.  Don't let anyone tell you or presume to tell you his destiny given the circumstances.  Provisions have been made through compassion and mercy for those who are in deep sorrow.  I don't know him but wish I had.  The day will, indeed, come when you shall both embrace one another once again.
    
    Again, all the best.

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    hudsonj1994posted 15 years ago

    That is absolutely terrible I am so sorry and I will pray for you.

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    Alessia Amnesiaposted 15 years ago

    I'd like to offer my sincerest condolences. It must be hard to lose a parent and I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family will both be in my thoughts. Blessed be.

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    mega1posted 15 years ago

    Kim - I know the real terribleness of this time for you and it must feel practically unbearable - You are amazingly strong and forthright, and have so much honesty - I too have lost not one but several people, family and friends, to suicide and have never, ever been able to understand it.  I have yet to find ways to really accept it - maybe that will never happen.  But there are still so many wonderful things in life and I find I can still laugh and love even though close ones needed to make that awful decision.  I feel your pain, I offer you love an understanding.

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    donotfearposted 15 years ago

    I'm sorry you are going through this now. It's difficult when a loved one is lost, especially in this manner. May it comfort you to know that I will be thinking of you this week as I venture out in my job as Crisis Assessor and Suicide prevention....I deal with this daily. My heart is with you my sweet little hubber.

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       Friendlywordposted 15 years agoin reply to this

       My advice to anyone that considers suicide for anything other then medical reasons is...just wait a little while longer...see how things look tomorrow.
       
       What is your professional advice?

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    double_frickposted 15 years ago

    i don't know you well, but i am sending you the most positive, loving thoughts your way. i can't imagine the pain you have to be going through, *uninvited HUGS*

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    Hauntyposted 15 years ago

    I'm so sorry to hear this, Kim! Please try to stay strong now. You've been through lots of things. You are a great person! We must respect the choice that your dad made.

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    A Texanposted 15 years ago

    Let me know if you need anything

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    lyricsingrayposted 15 years ago

    Everyone, please hear me.  Your words are helping me so much get through this confusing time.  You are incredible people and I am so lucky to be a part of this community.
    
    I don't even know how to find the words to express my gratitude.  Thank you all.

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    rmcrayneposted 15 years ago

    Kimberly I am so, so sorry.  I can’t imagine losing my father under any circumstances.  I’ve experienced suicide with cousins.  It’s an incredibly difficult thing to reconcile.  Lots, and lots and lots of time.  Then one day you realize you went a whole day without thinking about it.  That’s a start.  I’ll be thinking of you…

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    mistyhorizon2003posted 15 years ago

    Oh Kimberly, I am so sorry not to have commented sooner, but I only just saw this thread. Please remember your Father is around you all the time, and whatever his reasons for taking his own life, he will not be in any way punished for them "in spirit". I am certain his love for you will never die, and he will enjoy watching you progress and make further successes in your own life.
    
    If I can help, or if you just want a shoulder to cry on, please email me any time.
    
    Hugs
    
    xx

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    lyricsingrayposted 15 years ago

    misty, that meant a  lot and helps put some things in perspective
    thank you
    xo

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       mistyhorizon2003posted 15 years agoin reply to this

       Any time, I mean it! xx

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    Jeffrey Nealposted 15 years ago

    Kimberly, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Hang in there. We cannot know a person's reasons for their actions much of the time.
    I had a sibling who committed suicide several years ago, and it was very hurtful and confusing. Eventually a clearer picture came of it, but while I don't think suicide is ever a choice someone should make, it's hard to understand what's going on inside someone's head. Sometimes their world is unbearable to them...
    
    Sorry for the ramble, it brings back difficult memories.
    My sincere condolences, Kimberly.

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       lyricsingrayposted 15 years agoin reply to this

       Thank you so much for sharing.  No doubt the pain is very difficult.  Thank you for helping.  Really.

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    Naomi R. Coxposted 15 years ago

    I'm so sorry to hear about your dad. My condolences. I know your hurting right now and you already miss him. Time heals all wounds. Just give yourself that time to heal.
    
    Take care, I'll be thinking about you.

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    lyricsingrayposted 15 years ago

    Thank you Naomi, I think your right I just need to take the time.  Thank you for the support.

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    H.C Porterposted 15 years ago

    I am so sorry about your father Kimberly, I can not pretend to imagine your pain- You have been an example of strength and perseverance to so many here, and in this sorrowful time, I hope you are able to lean on all that are here to support you now. My deepest condolences and My thoughts will be with you...

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    Isabelle22posted 15 years ago

    You are in my prayers my heart goes out to you. To even be here at this time shows what great strength you must have.

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    skyfireposted 15 years ago

    Sorry to hear about your loss Kim.

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    BEAUTYBABEposted 15 years ago

    Kim I was so distressed to read about your father. It must be awful for you. My heart goes out to you dearest friend and you know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. I had a cry after I read that news, please accept my sincere condolences at this time of sorrow for you God Bless you and your family  Beautybabe. xx

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    lyricsingrayposted 15 years ago

    I am not sleeping and it is so comporting to be able to read this thread.
    
    I am touched and it helps more than you know.
    
    Your incredibly wonderful people.

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    The Ropeposted 15 years ago

    Kim, as I said before, hang in there - it's a long road ahead.  Just sleep when you can my friend.  Those sleep patterns will be hellish for awhile but they'll eventually even back out.  Let the thoughts flow when they need to and don't let anyone push their "coulda, shoulda's" on you.  Still praying for you and sending the positives your way...

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    seanorjohnposted 15 years ago

    Such sad news.Take great care of yourself. I know you will keep your father,s memory alive by talking , thinking of him and perhaps in time writing about him.

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    marcofratelliposted 15 years ago

    Hey Kim, sincere condolences my friend. I've just published a poem I wrote a few years back to help me grieve the loss of a friend. It's for you now. Hope it helps: http://hubpages.com/hub/A-Step-Along-The-Way
    x

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    manlypoetrymanposted 15 years ago

    lyrics...Sorry to hear of your loss...Praying that you will find comfort in the good memories of your Dad.

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    prettydarkhorseposted 15 years ago

    How are you today Kimberly, I hope you got some sleep?

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    Sa Toyaposted 15 years ago

    I've haven't been on hubpages much this weekend so only just found out. I'm so sorry Kimberly and I hope you're feeling better. I feel for you, like I'm also sorry for not making much sense or saying something better...I'm neve any good in situations like this...the important thing is that you love him and I'm sure he loved you.
    
    Hope you managed to get some sleep and some comfort and here's a HUG or 3 well as many as you need

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    Ron Montgomeryposted 15 years ago

    I'm sorry to read about your loss.  I have lost friends and a close relative to suicide, so I have some idea of what you must feel at this point.  It's confusing and frustrating; it takes a lot of time and reflection to come to terms with it.
    
    You will find the strength to work your way through this.

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    lyricsingrayposted 15 years ago

    Just had a minute to pop in cause I just had to let you know I printed this thread and they put it in the casket for me too.  He'll know now the support I have been given, and I am sure be relieved.  Thank you again.

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       glendoncabaposted 15 years agoin reply to this

       I cried a lot the week after my dad was buried.  I am praying for you as you go through this time. 
       
       On a literary perhaps even lighter note I am honoured that my poem in the thread has found a special place resting place.

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    lorlie6posted 15 years ago

    I am so very sorry, Lyrics.  This is such a terrible thing for you to have to go through.  You are a strong woman, though, and I am certain you will survive this tragedy.
    (((((HUGS)))))

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    Money Glitchposted 15 years ago

    I'm just now seeing this post.  Soooo sorry for you loss, Lyrics! I loss my dad last year in April and it was a difficult time. My prayers are with you and your family. ((((HUGS))) And please know that we are here to support you...

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    caravalhophotoposted 15 years ago

    Good Morning Lyrics...
    
    I just wanted to check in with you and make sure you are doing okay...my thoughts have not left you and my prayers are with you, stay strong my friend...Teresa

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    Money Glitchposted 15 years ago

    Hey Lyrics, Just stopped by to let you know I was thinking about you.  Let's know how you are doing when you can

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