I am going to die soon or may be, not the doctors report but the red blood is coming out from my nose & mouth with or without cough continuously from the last night(IST) in every half an hour.
The problem was from the last few months but increased;
In addition, what a great thing happens with me ,I am very happy & enjoying my life much better than the normal life in these days.
Did anyone faced such conditions ever.
So, your doctors checked you on this? My uncle had the same thing happen to him. It turned out that he was having a major heart attack! If you have not been to the doctor, you need to go as soon as possible!
Never happened to me. I'm not a doctor person either. I've gone only a couple of times in all my life ! lol!
But, if I had your symptoms, I'd go.
I don't think you're going to enjoy life, as you say you like, if blood is coming continuously from your mouth and nose.
Take care !
Go to the doctor you are to young to just ignore it and still have many years ahead of you , I have not faced them but I have seen them.
Not had bleeding from nose and mouth no; not how you describe.
I've looked at your blog and it all seems very strange. You talk about wantng the 'disease' at one time, and then talk about 'getting what you wanted', and refusing medical help from the word go. You talked too about 'washing off the germs'. You say the name of your disease is 'unknown' and in your photograph you look thin but otherwise OK.
If you do not know what you have got, how can you say it is fatal? The bleeding does sound serious, but it could also be due to infection, which is curable with antibiotics, but only a doctor can say. You need to get out and see one, and not sit online in the forums proclaiming you are dying without knowing if that is the case or not.
Sorry if this seems harsh.
For this flesh there is no rest,
That would ever compare to the unstoppable death.
I've a heart condition,
and a psychic trauma that doesn't allow me to sleep
Can't take pills to sleep due to the condition
And have no rest for about 9 moths ago.
A hell in earth.
Focus/meditate/pray on one single thing. Practice pushing other thoughts out of your mind. This take times and patience, but it will help you. Don't expect it to happen in one week or month, but keep working at it. Healing light being sent your way. Focus on a picture of something good if that helps.
Thank you very much,
I have found in my music, mi job, and my new life a new light to guide my way.
My family doesn't know but it's better, everyone has to deal with their own demons.
And here at Hubpages, I found lovely people and a way to express my feelings. Thnx again for reading my hubs.
It's good if you don't have fear. Fear of death is worse than death itself.
I do not know what is going on for you, but I know what it is like to keep having operations and getting closer to being inoperable the next time. My cancer killed me on the op table, but I wandered back. I spent the next two weeks not expecting to wake up the next morning as it became unlikely I would recover. I went through a lot of emotions, all in the usual order. I felt sorry for my self, I thought why me? then I got angry, then I saw how deeply I loved my family, fought like hell for my life and am still here.
I hope you make it this time. We all go in the end of course, but later is better for me at least.
All my best wishes, and may your power be with you.
If you are taking morphine for pain it reduces fear also.
I did not have any kind of 'Fear of Death' while suffering from these disease.
However, I am feeling very enjoyable this time that's the problem & that's the good thing as because I had already learned so much in my 19 years of my life that my similar age friends or other whom I know will take 12-15 more years to learn this (this is my own research) & I had promised myself to not to go to doctor becoz they will kill me with their medicines & as you mentioned by their operations also & I don't want to miss all other fun and joy remaining in my life.
My parents are worrying of me like they had pulled up a whole mountains on their hands.
Thanks for your kindness & support.
I still suggest getting a doctor for a check up, as I think life is already short in itself, and no point in making it even shorter.
Unless the doctors are untrustworthy.
Do seek some medical help ya?
I too have lost faith in doctors. This after working in Western Medicine over 30 years. If you don't trust MDs, please see someone. I go to a naturopath who is also a homeopath and herbalist. He has practiced over 40 years and knows so much! An Alternative Medicine provider will either help you, or tell you if you really should see an MD. Best of luck and keep us posted on your condition. I am hoping for healing for you, my new friend.
Oh I didn't know that. Are you alright now? Fit as a fiddle?
Very well, thank you. I made a full recovery minus a few body parts the cancer had eaten or ingested!
Wow that's great! A wonderful testimony to help others going through the same ordeal actually. You have a hub on it?
I have helped lots of terminal patients in my time. The one thing that is consistant, many report at being lucky. They suddenly realise that life is precious and they have a 'glow' about them.
When people are 'terminal' they have a great opportunity to live their lives. They can mend the wrongs in their lives. They can prioritise what is important. The battle they face brings out great strength. Through their suffering, they teach the rest of us to love and value. The importance of money becomes unimportant. People realise that the gift of giving of oneselve's time is the true value of life. Time is invaluable and life is about making a difference with love.
In my experience, acceptance of the transition from life to death brings about something special. It is a peacefulness. A calmness. People only give up the ghost when they are ready to, so their is no fear.
For me... I realise that we are all terminal. People that are diagnosed as such have a chance to make good. To make a difference. The rest of us carry on taking life for granted and wasting it.
The past has gone, there is not much we can do to change the past.
The future? Well, who knows any of us has a future! There is a joke... the best way to make God laugh is tell him your plans!
The present. It is now that is important. Every action now has a baring. On every moment, is the chance to be able to turn it all around.
It is for this reason I believe that 'life is for living!' Live it hard and live it with love - to what we can to help make a difference.
Love you mate x
Your words fully touched my Mind + Heart, thanks, but not have words to right more but the only reason I am not going to doctor is the chance of recovery in my mind naturally becoz whenever I got caught by any disease it gone away by telling me 'How you enjoyed'.
1. Do you know what the condition is called. i.e. why are you bleeding as you are?
2. If you can stop this by using natural remedies are you in a position to buy the required things from your local herbalist?
3. Do you want to live longer, or are you content to die?
I wish I had the words or thoughts to offer on here, but there are some things in life on which it is the person going through something, himself, who has the wisdom, inspiration, perspective, strength, and any number of other things that help him deal with difficult challenges and also teach others something. People so often have an amazing ability to deal with the challenges that come, day-by-day, and make the most of the life that is (no matter who we are) short.
itech, just tell anyone you're ever dealing with what it is they can to do or not do to make living with this kind of challenge a little easier. There's definitely something to be said for that fighting attitude.
I have read your comments and I can empathise with you entirely and I have been in a few shall we say " lifethreathening situations".
In 2003, I was diagnosed with Bacterial Spinal Meningitis. I had a device called an "Intrathecal Pain Pump" which was used to admminister a narcotic to me on a regular basis. It was administered through a cathether which was thread through my spinal cord in my back. However, at one of the times when my Doctor was filling up the portal where you inject the drug, a bug got into the catheter. I became sick very fast and for five weeks I hovered between life and death. The two things which nearly cost me my life were not the fact, that I had this grave infection, but the fact that my Pain Specialist and Infectious Diseases Specialist, could not agree on whether or not to take out the pump, which was by the way slowly killing me. One wanted it kept in while the other wanted it taken out.
In the end, my husband stepped in and begged the Infectious Diseases Specialst to make the Pain Specialst see sense. He wanted the pump in because he didn't want me in pain, and because of this he could not see that by stalling, he was causing me to eventually die.
I was subsequently taken to theatre, where I arrested twice on the table before the pump was out. Even when it was taken out, they still were unsure as to whether or not I would survive. But, after another six weeks in hospital, I got better and went home. I was then diagnosed with MSA IN 2006, the prognosis of this is not good. I have been told that your usually have six to seven years after the year you are diagnosed. I try not to think about that part, and live each day one at a time. Hubpages has helped me a lot therapeutically, and I will keep writing my hubs until I can't anymore. Its been great meeting all the other hubbers, thanks guys, and god bless one and all Beautybabe.
Thanks for sharing your story & I salute your dedication/courage of living.
If anyone want to see How my diseased face look
just see this :
Your face does not looked diseased at all. It's a very handsome face. I'm sorry for your suffering, but since you are obviously very smart, how about researching on the internet what the possible causes of your bleeding may be, and look at some alternatives in how to treat it.
Not all doctors are incompetent. I've had bad ones and good ones. The good ones know how to save lives. India has some very, very highly qualified doctors, according to many sources.
Be well, friend. If you want to live longer, then use your intelligence to save your life. That would include researching and finding a Dr who knows how to treat your condition. What a shame it would be for you to be cut off from a full, rich life at such a young, dynamic, wonderful age. Fight for your life. Do it today.
Sending best wishes.
Way to be strong and of good courage...during something so difficult. The only thing that truly matters is how we feel moment to moment in our lives...and you pass that in flying colors...and that is very admirable. Besides...you get final say (for the most part) in what happens to your life...healing and a strong will to live...can trump a doctors diagnosize any day !
Colloidal Silver (the highest ppm you can possibly get) and get yourself off of Grains and Sugar. Surgar feeds cancer. Cancer eats it up and that is why you lose so much energy even eating things that have surgar in them. Stop the cycle.
Do you take blood thinners? I didn't see that mentioned here. I was on them and they had me too thin and I bleed through my internal organs too. I weened myself off of those right quick after that and I have never had a problem since.
You are too young to just let it take you. I have been fighting cancer since 1993. I have sought death in my sorrow many times and even pleaded with god to take me. The pain was almost more than I could bear many times, the drugs made things worse it seemed. I was supposed to die within 7.5 years and most certainly within ten. I finally gave up on that silly notion of dying, fought for life and love and family, now here I am living, breathing still uncured with a stent in my belly and a defibrillator in my breast. I am most happy but no more pain killers and I live with pain but it reminds me daily of how precious life is. So youngin' fight this thing and seek a reputable oncologist, live for life's sake! Good luck now.
itech I have never faced such a moment, so far as I'm aware. Over and above an abusive relationship and on the occasions I thought I may well end up dead, I did my best to avoid it.
And if you can side step death, then at least make an attempt.
However, if you're square with the world, if you feel that it's your only course of action, then I applaud your courage.
You're the age of one of my sons. God forbid such a thing happened to him. I'd give my own life to save him and would fight like a tigress to keep him well.
Fight for your life if you're able. If not, then peace be with you.
I don't recall thinking this as a joke. You have never gotten to the bottom of your life and thought about death, I pressume? Sometimes all it does take is a rest to rethink things and give one a better view of what is happening with them. Joke or not this happens to the best of us.
Lately I've been thinking, I'm okay to go. No fear. Or I may just be depressed and just don't know it. But when I think about it now as I type this, yeah I think I'm okay to go. Not that I'm wishing it or anything.
Sometimes I think I'm ok to go, sometimes I even wish for death. Other times are completely different and I think no matter how much I suffer anyway, it's worth living for one single happy moment.
I hope you don't think about this too often, Cris. It's good to see you. Merry Christmas!
We should all be ready to go. As we're going anyway!
No worries, I'm far from being suicidal or self destructive. But still, thanks for the show of concern
There is a country and western song that says everybody needs to live like we were dieing. Cause none of us know when our last day will be.
That is a beautiful state of mind when you enjoy life to the fullest. I'm not talking about the dieing part!! It is the LIVING with peace that is beautiful, and we shouldn't forget that.
The part of itec's situation that would scare me is ..."If I do nothing to find out what the problem is, and damage is done to my body that could have been prevented...If I do not die but live a long life that is less enjoyable than it should have been".
I knew a guy once that WANTED to die and jumped off a bridge, no water underneath. He has been in a wheel chair now for 15 years.
You need to get a diagnosis and prognosis before you can make an inteligent decision.
Pease be with you in anything that you decide.
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