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You'll find two personas in my hubs, one Poohgranma and one Phoenix.

The Phoenix is a mythical bird that ignites into a fireball at death, and then a fully-grown new Phoenix rises from the ashes. Kahlil Gibran uses the legend of the Phoenix as a metaphor for death and resurrection.

Poohgranma writes about what she knows.  Much is in memoir form.  Her story "I Still Look For You" is one of her most important stories ... it saved her life.  Come along and follow the twists and turns at a sometimes dizzying pace.  You'll learn of relationships, domestic abuse, mental illness and much much more.

Phoenix, the alter ego, also writes of these subjects but also delves into poetry and subjects sweet Pooh would not dare write about.  I hope you'll enjoy both of them and their stories.

 

 

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  • The Love That Remains
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    The Love That Remains

    4 years ago

    I do not call these feelings from the past or beckon them to haunt my days, my nights. They are simply there, unannounced and completely in control of whatever I was feeling or planning. Without fail, there is the...

  • All-season Radical Friends
    12

    All-season Radical Friends

    4 years ago

    If the shear creativity, wisdom and beauty of the people who are in my life could be harnessed into a single beam of light, it would shine brighter than the sun. If directed toward creating peace throughout the entire...

  • The Knowing
    25

    The Knowing

    4 years ago

    The grass had grown in just this place to cushion her, the branches spread themselves precisely, leaves positioned only to provide her shade. Even the sun conspired to perfectly deliver warmth without blinding light or...

  • Here Comes The Sun  - The continuation of “Memories We Share”
    16

    Here Comes The Sun - The continuation of “Memories We Share”

    4 years ago

    Last night, there was a power failure. I was folding the laundry and suddenly found myself in complete darkness, no street lights, no car lights, just black on black. So, did I stand there and wait for the power to...

  • Wisdom's Cruel Reality
    17

    Wisdom's Cruel Reality

    4 years ago

    Foolishness, all of it for in the end, all takes leave everyone departs and must walk their own path It is not those who die we should mourn but those who are left behind It matters not the care that’s...

  • I Still Look For You – The Sequel – Chapter 3
    8

    I Still Look For You – The Sequel – Chapter 3

    4 years ago

    Life went on and I didn’t hear from him for a while and had no luck reaching him at the mother of his daughters, though I did leave a message. Then one day I got a call and he was in town, at the truck stop, with...

  • I Still Look For You – The Sequel – Chapter 2
    12

    I Still Look For You – The Sequel – Chapter 2

    4 years ago

    I have nearly driven myself into a frenzy trying to forget this person from my past and have examined and re-examined what possibly could cause me to dream of him so often or have his memory come sneaking up on me when...

  • I Still Look For You – The Sequel
    12

    I Still Look For You – The Sequel

    4 years ago

    If you’ve not read the original and the series entitled, “Memories We Share”, some of this will not make sense to you. The only summary I can give is that the first deals with memories of a young man...

  • And Then There Was One
    28

    And Then There Was One

    4 years ago

    Photo: Cindy Wilson/Telegraph-Journal Ida brought a single cup of coffee to the table and sat down, trying to ignore the chair across from her, now unoccupied. She had started to make his toast again this morning...

  • Only Remains
    5

    Only Remains

    4 years ago

    The threadbare weave covers me again and even though I protest I also can not deny, nor do I truly wish it to cease forever It matters not where or what a night sky foreboding clouds covering the moon or...

  • My Life Has Been A Chorus Line
    28

    My Life Has Been A Chorus Line

    3 years ago

    The following, is my life depicted in word and video clips of one of my favorite movies, “A Chorus Line.” You need to watch the videos in sequence with the writing to understand. Unfortunately, the source of...

  • Who is This Man Just Back From the War?
    20

    Who is This Man Just Back From the War?

    4 years ago

    The wife of a Viet Nam Vet shares her view of the man she loves, newly home from the war. What was it like for the spouses way back then?

  • Night Time Lover
    34

    Night Time Lover

    4 years ago

    She snuggles her head into the pillows and pulls the covers up tight around her shoulders hoping they will feel as if she’s being held by her lover. For weeks now he has come to her in her dreams and even the...

  • Phoenix Rises … Again
    20

    Phoenix Rises … Again

    4 years ago

    She’d been toying with the idea, letting it tumble around with all of the other thoughts that whizzed through her mind at neck breaking speeds. Why should she bother? What would it matter? But then again, why...

  • LIVING IS A LIE
    25

    LIVING IS A LIE

    4 years ago

    photo - http://baltimorespectator.blogspot.com/2010_06_01_archive.html Sick of dying Sick of death Waiting for his final breath I want to scream I want to cry I want now only To say good bye NOT TO HIM To death and...

  • I Remember the Day … or do I?
    13

    I Remember the Day … or do I?

    5 years ago

    I’ve recently found a writer online who had MPD, Multiple Personality Disorder. She has been able to integrate these personalities and is doing quite well, especially considering the absolute Hell of her...

  • How You Gonna Call Me Darlin' When You Just Buried A Knife in My Back
    15

    How You Gonna Call Me Darlin' When You Just Buried A Knife in My Back

    4 years ago

    http://pictures-of-historic-nacogdoches.com/617abandoned.jpeg “Carly! Did you hear me calling you girl?” Mama’s voice broke through Carly’s daydream like a wrecking ball through a dilapidated...

  • If You Can’t Say Anything Nice …
    26

    If You Can’t Say Anything Nice …

    5 years ago

    I’ve had another bout of writer’s block, or at least that’s what I thought it was. I pondered this situation, reading others stories and poetry and all it did was make me even more sure that I have...

  • The Legacy
    9

    The Legacy

    5 years ago

    Her voice of guilt comes on breezes blown through windows I have not the strength to close I stuff fingers in my ears to block the mocking sound Yet she, unrelenting, follows there, always knowing where I can be...

  • October Massacre
    24

    October Massacre

    5 years ago

    You stalked me for days, returning to the place you knew I could always be found. Why you chose me I do not understand. Maybe you envied my almost perfect skin or my shape, beguiling to many. I have heard the horror...

  • It’s Not Your Fault
    17

    It’s Not Your Fault

    5 years ago

    Your presence has been with me for over twenty years now, never quenching my scorched silent desires. I have created a you, as an escape from my mental anguish, a you that never was and never could have been. We have...

  • Memories We Share – Part 18 - Grateful for the Absence
    11

    Memories We Share – Part 18 - Grateful for the Absence

    5 years ago

    As I sit savoring my morning coffee in a house warm enough to ward off the Fall chill, I swallow a handful of medication my older human system now requires. But I have the means to acquire my needs and I am struck with...

  • The Old Iron Bench
    19

    The Old Iron Bench

    4 years ago

    copyright by Phoenix51 Photo by Author - Old Iron Bench Older and alone is not a state void of emotion. It is, indeed, filled to the brim with self-reflection, longing, memories and dreams. Hours there linger. The...

  • MEMORIES WE SHARE – Part 17
    15

    MEMORIES WE SHARE – Part 17

    5 years ago

    photo by /alanklughammer.com Comes the Winter snow flakes falling You see them sparkle I hear death calling Who decides what’s right for me? because you love me Set me free You hear...

  • MEMORIES WE SHARE – Part 16
    11

    MEMORIES WE SHARE – Part 16

    5 years ago

    Your eyes hold that glassy stare this morning that tells me you are in there somewhere but buried deep. You walk past me without a word as I say good morning and head for the front porch. “Where you going,...

  • MEMORIES WE SHARE – Part 15
    8

    MEMORIES WE SHARE – Part 15

    5 years ago

    You are still asleep this morning and I enjoy the solitude and my coffee. I feel guilty that I enjoy time when you are asleep but logic screams in my ear that any respite, no matter how short, allows me to regroup, calm...

  • MEMORIES WE SHARE – Part 14
    6

    MEMORIES WE SHARE – Part 14

    5 years ago

    Google images It was Saturday morning, August 13th. As you woke, I asked how you how you were feeling. “Rough” you replied and I told you it was time for your morning pills. I handed you the daily...

  • MEMORIES WE SHARE – Part 13
    12

    MEMORIES WE SHARE – Part 13

    5 years ago

    On July 30th you announce you are going to die on July 31st. You have expressed deep concern about my financial well being and have decided that if you pass away at the end of the month you will some how beat the...

  • MEMORIES WE SHARE – PART 12
    10

    MEMORIES WE SHARE – PART 12

    5 years ago

    It has been 12 days since this and much much more has happened! Here's the beginning of the new developments. A little after 1:00 a.m. I woke to find our cats Tiger and Lil-bit on my chest. Lil-bit was having...

  • MEMORIES WE SHARE – Part 11
    17

    MEMORIES WE SHARE – Part 11

    4 years ago

    cartoon via Google pictures A quart of hot coffee, creamer and two ice cubes fly out of your hand and thankfully past you and onto the table, chair and carpet with only a few drops on you and your shirt. The...

  • EXPLORING FOR TREASURE – PART 4
    12

    EXPLORING FOR TREASURE – PART 4

    4 years ago

    Flickr pictures Lynn ran with all of her might and cut across the railroad tracks taking a path she used to knock a couple of blocks off the walk back the hotel. It was not only faster but closer to the river, a...

  • MEMORIES WE SHARE – Part 10
    15

    MEMORIES WE SHARE – Part 10

    5 years ago

    Google pictures It is not the young lovers who stroll, arms around each others waists that I envy. It is the old couple helping each other walk down the street, hand in fragile hand, slowly making their way home to...

  • EXPLORING FOR TRESURE – Part 3
    9

    EXPLORING FOR TRESURE – Part 3

    4 years ago

    Lynn had been constantly weighing her options as soon as she’d made eye contact with this jerk and knew in the pit of her stomach that he was some kind of trouble. He sure wasn’t no preacher and it seemed...

  • EXPLORING FOR TREASURE - Part 2
    7

    EXPLORING FOR TREASURE - Part 2

    5 years ago

    It was too late to try hiding like the little mice so Lynn stuck out her chin, squared her eleven, almost twelve, year old shoulders and assumed what she hoped was an intimidating pose. “Whatca doin’ in...

  • EXPLORING FOR TREASURE - Part One
    11

    EXPLORING FOR TREASURE - Part One

    5 years ago

    http://www.flickr.com/photos/graph_ite/3220612583/ The tiny store smelled of old paper, stale coffee and wood polish and it was one of Lynn’s favorite places in the world. The creaky old wood floors let the...

  • Memories We Share – Part 9
    15

    Memories We Share – Part 9

    5 years ago

    My Mother has died at the hospital, in the city where we used to live, three days ago and yours is now in the hospital with bone cancer and pneumonia. She has chosen not to be treated for either, but kept comfortable....

  • Memories We Share – Part 8
    9

    Memories We Share – Part 8

    5 years ago

    The sun shines on tender tendrils of a vine that climbs my window. Puffy white clouds float in blue skies and all appears right in the world … if you focus. Friday afternoon I started feeling the pounding...

  • Memories We Share - Part 7
    14

    Memories We Share - Part 7

    5 years ago

    Google Images To the tune of “My Favorite Things” Blood drops on pavement and slicing knives ready Pale murdered corpses the smell is so heady Body bags filling with life’s throw a-ways ...

  • Missing Laughter
    30

    Missing Laughter

    4 years ago

    Author's photos Take me to that place again that we have been before where leaves torn from trees are food for your plastic dinosaurs Let’s go into your tent and have a picnic with your stuffed...

  • Memories We Share – Part 6
    21

    Memories We Share – Part 6

    5 years ago

    A nurse, a spiritual adviser and a social worker walk into a bar and … No wait … that’s a prelude to a joke. Yesterday your other Hospice nurse paid a visit and brought a huge box to hold all...

  • Memories We Share - Part 5
    12

    Memories We Share - Part 5

    4 years ago

    Our old flag still flying 7/4/11 Lightening struck battered by icy winds tattered edges still unfurl who can imagine him not being in this world? scars? well, yes old battles won and lost he holds on...

  • Memories We Share - Part 4
    18

    Memories We Share - Part 4

    5 years ago

    The morning sun and the sound of you stirring about, wakes me from my all too short sleep. I stumble for the bathroom and then to the coffee pot. I put in an extra scoop as if it will ward off the fatigue that has...

  • Memories We Share – Part 3
    12

    Memories We Share – Part 3

    5 years ago

    The moon cries tears of stars and the sun is washed away by fear avenues of pain and empty futures gut wrenching pain gushes and engulfs muscles spasm, teeth grit and eyes burn from lack of closing even the...

  • Memories We Share – Part 2
    16

    Memories We Share – Part 2

    4 years ago

    Dying alone, was never meant to be Let me put my arms around you Tell your fears and hopes to me We have been together For as long as I remember And will be so now as we journey … Down The Dying Path...

  • Memories We Share - Part One
    20

    Memories We Share - Part One

    5 years ago

    The thunder shakes the very foundation of our house and lightening strikes like a cobra, closer, more threatening with each flash. I watch as people hurry to their cars and struggle to see the roads they drive to their...

  • A Matter of Differing Perspectives
    22

    A Matter of Differing Perspectives

    5 years ago

    Clatter Ruckus Commotion everywhere! “All I want is some quiet. Is that too much to ask – just some peace and quiet?” He slammed the door to his makeshift den and stuffed his fingers...

  • KNOW MY NAME
    16

    KNOW MY NAME

    5 years ago

    You want And you need You’re getting in My way   I desire You Expect It can’t be Both ways     You do not matter You have no worth I have certain ...

  • Two Colleagues - H.O.W. Do You Stack Up in Our World?
    26

    Two Colleagues - H.O.W. Do You Stack Up in Our World?

    4 years ago

    This hub was written some eighteen months ago but I have chosen it as my contribution to the H.O.W. challenge founded by fellow writer, Bill Holland. Many have joined together to bring an awareness that, banded...

  • The Boxes
    26

    The Boxes

    5 years ago

    “If you want to do this by yourself just say so and we will gladly leave! I don’t have the wealth of time that you do to sort though each and every piece of paper Mom has hoarded all of these years and the...

  • When to Leave it Alone
    21

    When to Leave it Alone

    5 years ago

    I watch my husband of twenty-three years leave for his visit with his doctor and have a flashback of letting go of my five-year old son’s hand so he can go into the kindergarten class with the other kids. It is...

  • AS I GET OLDER
    61

    AS I GET OLDER

    5 years ago

    I will be sixty this year and I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how my life has changed. From some of the articles I’ve been reading by folks in my age range, I believe there is a lot of this going on....

  • My Home, My Prison
    12

    My Home, My Prison

    5 years ago

    The sun was shining, deceivingly illuminating and casting tiny shadows that appeared harmless. The day beckoned me to join in, to shed my protective layers and relax in its warmth. As I peered from my window I saw many...

  • I Came Fully Awake
    14

    I Came Fully Awake

    5 years ago

    I awake and wonder where I am and how I have come to be in this place. You are here and your presence fills my being, I am once more alive and young, full of energy and longing … for you. Even though you...

  • HER ESCAPE
    36

    HER ESCAPE

    5 years ago

    Dark night She paces the floor Will he come home And begin calling her,” WHORE!” Should she try to make A break for it If he catches her leaving It’s all over she knows ...

  • THIS LEAVING IS MINE (lyrics)
    21

    THIS LEAVING IS MINE (lyrics)

    5 years ago

    Longing for freedom To ride on the wind Set my face forward Not come back here again Why can’t I leave here I really must go To stay here won’t do me It’s killing me slow To...

  • Willie Can You Tell Me
    15

    Willie Can You Tell Me

    5 years ago

    Somewhere and somehow I got old Believing all the lies they told I never used to think it true Believed every word About the Red, White and Blue Now please don’t get me wrong And think I...

  • Acceptable Losses
    21

    Acceptable Losses

    5 years ago

    Fabric threadbare Shallow eyes Mouth turned downward From all the lies Said they’d always be the best Now no one is here As they’re laid to rest Gave it all And gave...

  • FLIP OF THE COIN
    15

    FLIP OF THE COIN

    5 years ago

    Which way to go A decision to make One that isn’t so easy My life it may take I’ve put in my time God knows I have tried So many tears Witnessed, and cried Should I play out...

  • Necessary Things
    15

    Necessary Things

    5 years ago

    The oxygen unit is much louder than the portable he used to use. This hums and makes a shish, thump noise as is shoves life giving air into his lungs. I have developed a love/hate relationship with this beast.  It...

  • BRING ON THE PAIN
    17

    BRING ON THE PAIN

    5 years ago

    I heard a comment about pain. It was said that sometimes a person actually manifests physical pain because the psychological pain they have is too difficult to deal with. If that is the case, bring on the physical...

  • I STILL LOOK FOR YOU – THE FINAL CHAPTER
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    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU – THE FINAL CHAPTER

    5 years ago

    Lynn and her children did move to Iowa City where she lived for the next thirteen years. Her children grew to love the city and had many more cultural advantages both in school and in meeting people from all over the...

  • I STILL LOOK FOR YOU  - Part 23
    7

    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - Part 23

    5 years ago

    On the drive to Iowa City, Lynn’s mind wandered back to the day she had met Bobby. Never would she have believed her life would take such twists and turns. What cruel cloud hung over her, parting to expose the...

  • Wednesdays With Ali
    22

    Wednesdays With Ali

    5 years ago

    There is nothing on this earth I look forward to more than my weekly visits with my, just turned, six year old granddaughter. I can be in the worst mood, aching from head to toe, my Depression threatening to pull me...

  • THE VERDICT IS IN – part 2
    17

    THE VERDICT IS IN – part 2

    5 years ago

    As her car drove off I checked my purse, knowing before I looked I didn’t have car fare. Oh why did I wear these blasted high heels? Well, because that is what she would expect. I am always to do what is...

  • THE VERDICT IS IN – A Short Story
    18

    THE VERDICT IS IN – A Short Story

    5 years ago

    A real decision is measured by the fact that you've taken new action. If there's no action, you haven't truly decided. ~ Tony Robbin “And furthermore”, she said, looking over her half-eye glasses,...

  • Lyrics For Walking Away
    27

    Lyrics For Walking Away

    5 years ago

    We started out so delicious And then you turned vicious What was on your mind that day We made love and shared love And all was good Then you laughed and just walked away I followed your...

  • Word Salad
    17

    Word Salad

    5 years ago

    Add all ingredients Even the deviants They hide well under Pleasant sounding tones Pound out the heartache The core comes out easily It only needs twisted, then torn Decorate the edges...

  • Forgetting You Again
    20

    Forgetting You Again

    5 years ago

    It should come easier and quicker since repeated so many times. Tuck the memories back into the crevices, fold up poems written, letters penned and never sent. Take out my present life and look hard in the mirror. ...

  • Legacy of Love – Legacy of Pain
    25

    Legacy of Love – Legacy of Pain

    5 years ago

    My grand baby learning to love Sometime in my early forties I started seeing a therapist. I was fortunate to find one with whom I felt an immediate comfort and someone who would listen to everything I had to say...

  • I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 22
    12

    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 22

    5 years ago

    Lynn had sat by the river thinking and planning oblivious to time but as the sun disappeared behind clouds that had rolled in her attention was brought back to her surroundings. She noted the time and reluctantly...

  • I STILL LOOK FOR YOU  - PART 21
    4

    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 21

    5 years ago

    Lynn had made a decision that was, at the time, the only one her circumstances seemed to allow. She and Bobby had discussed the dangers of her contacting the Spear’s accountant but she knew him to be an honest...

  • WE ARE ONE
    18

    WE ARE ONE

    5 years ago

    A poem for all of us who have had to come to terms with our childhood.

  • Folklore, Science or God?
    12

    Folklore, Science or God?

    5 years ago

    In British Isles folklore, Jack Frost appears as an elfish creature who personifies crisp, cold, winter weather, a variant of Old Man Winter. Some believe this representation originated in Germanic folklore specifically...

  • DO NOT SPEAK ILL OF THE DEAD – ALWAYS TELL THE TRUTH -“My Mother”
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    DO NOT SPEAK ILL OF THE DEAD – ALWAYS TELL THE TRUTH -“My Mother”

    5 years ago

    Memoir excerpt about an adult child trying to come to terms with her Mother's untreated mental illness.

  • ACQUIESCE
    18

    ACQUIESCE

    5 years ago

    I look deeply, studying the lines in her face, the turned down mouth Her eyes are flat – blue – maybe gray The hair is dull and has no particular shape Who is she? Why is she here? Her...

  • BACK IN THE DAY
    20

    BACK IN THE DAY

    5 years ago

    I wasn’t always like this You wouldn’t look away if only you could see me Back in the day Back in the day I had an office I had a secretary too I commanded everyone’s attention...

  • THERE’S A NEW KID IN TOWN
    11

    THERE’S A NEW KID IN TOWN

    5 years ago

    So, what about this new kid, what’s she got to show? Don’t know. Where’s she from? What’s she done? They say she’s got a stone for a heart. Takes no prisoners. Well, I...

  • ONE FACE OF DEPRESSION
    13

    ONE FACE OF DEPRESSION

    5 years ago

    There are many faces of Depression. Lack of energy, the inability to concentrate, self loathing and trouble maintaining personal care are just some of them. This hub is about a woman who has had Treatment Resistant...

  • The Day Poohgranma Left
    15

    The Day Poohgranma Left

    5 years ago

    I didn’t want to be the one who told you but she has left me behind to pass on the news of her leaving.  She struggled for so many years from Depression and Anxiety disorders that left her a prisoner in her...

  • TIME TO SAY GOODBYE MY FRIEND
    11

    TIME TO SAY GOODBYE MY FRIEND

    5 years ago

    For my readers who have been following the "I Still Look For You" memoir, this is a peek at the final chapter. I don't know of an author who didn't see the end coming to their own story, but this happened to...

  • A NEW LIFE – A FRESH START -  Part 2
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    A NEW LIFE – A FRESH START - Part 2

    5 years ago

    Winter reluctantly admitted defeat to spring that year after several attempts to discourage new beginnings. For Lynn, every day was a challenge both at work and home. While Traci was in a self contained class for kids...

  • A NEW LIFE -A FRESH START   - PART 1
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    A NEW LIFE -A FRESH START - PART 1

    5 years ago

    The next couple of months, Lynn was happier than she’d been in a long time. She found that the bookkeeping was not nearly as difficult as she had imagined although the logic escaped her that a rent subsidy could...

  • FRACTURED - PART 6 - The END?
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    FRACTURED - PART 6 - The END?

    5 years ago

    The foreman took Lynn to the break room after another worker helped her to her feet and she managed to make it to the water fountain to get the cold water splashed on her face. “You pregnant?” he narrowed...

  • FRACTURED – Part 5
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    FRACTURED – Part 5

    5 years ago

    Up until today, Lynn had avoided attending Group but after all she had experienced of this place she wasn’t concerned with what Nurse Rogers had to dish onto her plate. She should have learned caution instead of...

  • Barren Soul
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    Barren Soul

    5 years ago

    At least smile at me or lie As you lead me in the spiral down And down Down unto my demise If not a smile for me, then you Your triumph Curl up your lips in a snarl if that is your will ...

  • FRACTURED - Part 4
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    FRACTURED - Part 4

    5 years ago

    The little window in the door slid open and Janis, the nice nurse that had gone over the rules with Lynn and brought her belongings was peering in. “Lynn? Lynn, listen to me hun, as soon as you calm down...

  • FRACTURED – Part 3
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    FRACTURED – Part 3

    5 years ago

    Lynn had learned a great deal from her roommate, Jenny, the night before.  First of all, even if she didn’t have off ward privileges, she could give money to another resident and they could buy what she...

  • Fractured – Part 2
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    Fractured – Part 2

    5 years ago

    one flew over the cuckoos nest Zach wasn’t used to anyone crossing him and this little snip of a woman would get hers and he’d see to it. Smart mouthed little bitch, just like all the rest. Lynn wandered...

  • FRACTURED
    8

    FRACTURED

    5 years ago

    “See the one in the corner? She came in late last night. One of Dr. Pinden’s. Came banging on the door, honest to God – practically demanding to be let in. “Not too many trying to get in are...

  • CLASSMATES, FACE BOOK, INTELIUS AND GOOGLE - SEARCHING FOR OLD FRIENDS
    12

    CLASSMATES, FACE BOOK, INTELIUS AND GOOGLE - SEARCHING FOR OLD FRIENDS

    5 years ago

    Should old acquaintance be forgot and never brought to mind …. She read his obituary in the online newspaper of the town they had lived in. She stumbled across it, looking instead for information of a funeral...

  • I STILL LOOK FOR YOU PART 20
    7

    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU PART 20

    5 years ago

    picture from Photo-bucket - two sources Lynn declined pleas to join everyone bowling and watched comfortably with her legs pulled under her in the soft booth. This was one area where Tim would excel from his weekly...

  • I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 19
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    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 19

    5 years ago

    Morning sunshine, Tim, Traci and Kurt found Lynn and Bobby asleep on the sofa wrapped in each others arms and half covered with a throw. Bobby was the first to wake, in part because his brother didn’t believe in...

  • I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 18
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    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 18

    5 years ago

    Lynn pulled into the lot, parking near the office. So this was the complex she might be managing she thought to herself, trying not to be intimidated by its size. Two hundred and fifty-six units compared to the...

  • I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 17
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    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 17

    5 years ago

    In the following months, Lynn would have to be tougher than she had been in her life. Her further cooperation with the investigation against her employer took her deeper into secrets she didn’t want to know and...

  • MY JOURNEY THROUGH  INSANITY – THE EARLY YEARS –  continues 2
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    MY JOURNEY THROUGH INSANITY – THE EARLY YEARS – continues 2

    5 years ago

    Lynn liked the new house, well rather the woods right next to it on one side and the cornfield that butted right up to the dirt driveway on the other. She spent most days in the thick woods of trees tangled and muted...

  • MY JOURNEY THROUGH INSANITY - THE EARLY YEARS continues
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    MY JOURNEY THROUGH INSANITY - THE EARLY YEARS continues

    5 years ago

    MY JOURNEY THROUGH INSANITY – THE EARLY YEARS – continues It was bitterly cold and darker than any night Lynn had ever seen. She wanted to be home in her warm bed. Her Mom said they couldn’t...

  • MY JOURNEY THROUGH INSANITY – THE VERY EARLY YEARS
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    MY JOURNEY THROUGH INSANITY – THE VERY EARLY YEARS

    5 years ago

    SOME PEOPLE OUGHT NEVER BE PARENTS Lynn’s Mother, was one woman who should have never had children. She would agree so don’t think I’m being disrespectful here. I know you’re not to speak...

  • I STILL LOOK FOR YOU – Part 16
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    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU – Part 16

    5 years ago

    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU – Part 16 Lynn saw the doctor later that day and discovered her ribs were bruised but not fractured. The cut above her eye should have had stitches but it was too late. The scar would...

  • CHRISTMAS, LIKE LIFE, IS WHAT YOU MAKE OF IT
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    CHRISTMAS, LIKE LIFE, IS WHAT YOU MAKE OF IT

    3 years ago

    Each year, I find it more and more difficult to find that magic that once filled me from the day after Thanksgiving until well after the last present was unwrapped on Christmas morning. As I get older and there are...

  • I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 15
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    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 15

    5 years ago

    I Still Look For You – Part 15 `She had found an Ace wrap and Traci helped her put it around her wrist but she knew she would have to go into the doctor on Monday. She showered, put on sweatpants and a...

  • I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 14
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    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 14

    6 years ago

    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU – PART 14 Bill stepped away from her, slid the knife under the desk and opened the door to the office.“Yes, Officer, how can I help you?” Lynn slid past him on legs as weak as...

  • I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 13
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    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 13

    5 years ago

    She couldn’t see the parking lot from her bedroom but she knew it was Bill’s car. She clawed at the register that held the gun but then she heard the door knob turn downstairs and the door open freely....

  • I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 12
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    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 12

    6 years ago

    THE LINK TO PART 13 IS NOW APPROVED AND WORKING - thank God and TeamHub! I STILL LOOK FOR YOU – PART 12 Bobby laughed at her the next morning over coffee. “You were out before we closed the...

  • I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 11
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    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 11

    6 years ago

    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU – PART 11 The Monday after Thanksgiving break found Lynn on the phone with her attorney’s secretary and Bobby, with Kurt in tow, at her front door ready to take the kids...

  • I STIIL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 10
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    I STIIL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 10

    4 years ago

    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 10 Lynn drove aimlessly for awhile, trying to calm the kids and reassure them that she would get their jackets and while, no, they would not be having Thanksgiving with their Dad, they...

  • I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 9
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    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 9

    6 years ago

    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU – PART 9 On the drive to Bill’s, Lynn tried to develop some sort of strategy to get herself and the kids away from him safely without having to spend the night and before...

  • I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 8
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    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 8

    6 years ago

    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU – Part 8 Thanksgiving was coming and the kids would be out of school for the next few days. Lynn decided to use this time to go and visit her sister and just get away from all of the mess...

  • I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 7
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    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 7

    5 years ago

    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU – PART 7 Lynn did her best to keep all expression from her face attempting to ignore this bomb shell Kurt had dropped on her lovely morning. “Oh, so I’m making French Toast...

  • I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 6
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    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 6

    5 years ago

    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 6 Bill had been in the house. “I can get in your house you fool, any time I want to. I was in the closet in your bedroom, close enough to take you both out if I wanted.”...

  • I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 5
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    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 5

    6 years ago

    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU – PART- 5 One of the obstacles of leaving an abusive relationship when you have children with the perpetrator is allowing visitation. At this time there were no agencies...

  • I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 4
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    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 4

    6 years ago

    Even though this house was a temporary home for Lynn and her children she loved it and enjoyed its beauty every day. Her boss and owner of the apartment complexes she managed knew all too well of the state her marriage...

  • I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 3
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    I STILL LOOK FOR YOU - PART 3

    6 years ago

    I Still Look For You continues – 2 Exhausted, she had fallen asleep on Bobby’s couch.  She awoke to the touch of his fingers, running through her hair gently pushing it away from her face, her...

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    I Still Look For You - PART 2

    5 years ago

    “Come with me”, he held out his hand to her. She would have followed him to the end of time at that moment. “There are trails over there, by the bluff – let’s go!”He laughed,...

  • DO THE ROOTS OF DOMESTIC ABUSE BEGIN IN CHILDHOOD?
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    DO THE ROOTS OF DOMESTIC ABUSE BEGIN IN CHILDHOOD?

    4 years ago

    Learning Early She was the new kid in class grades K-6, once attending as many as three schools in a year. Terrible at sports, barely adequate in her studies and a complete failure at making friends, she found love...

  • Michael Joseph - My Journey Into Insanity Continues
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    Michael Joseph - My Journey Into Insanity Continues

    6 years ago

    Michael Joseph He paid for his night out with a copy of True Romance and a Snicker’s. Propped in bed with three pillows, she devoured both trying to ignore the gnawing pains in her back. Saying this...

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    I Still Look For You - PART 1

    4 years ago

    Soon coming in book form and Kindle, this series of memoirs written by a young woman who meets the one person who can help her climb her way out of an abusive relationship. Heartache, love, friendship and lifelong...

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